Tuesday, January 31, 2006
23! Amazing! I can remember the number!
Hi! I'm still having diarrhea... haha! Sucky... I hate diarrhea. So inconvenient & so uncomfortable when u have to hold it in.
Anyways, went to Mabel's for steamboat. Didn't buy my own porridge in the end. I thought, heck la, diarrhea then diarrhea. It can't get worse anyways. And it didn't! At least, not yet. Haha! I suppose I ate the most (again?) since I was at the table from the start till the end. Had fishballs, mushroom balls, sotong balls, some funny vegetable-bits-inside rolls, cuttlefish, button mushrooms, golden straw mushrooms... etc etc. The soup was abalone soup lor! Yummy leh! So I ate with Eva & her boyfriend, CK & Yingru, Doris & Mabel... Later Liming & Joey came, then I was still eating, then Daphne came! And I was still there, by which time only left me & Daphne. Haha! The rest finished liao.
Anyways, they were playing mahjong & watching TV & doing nothing... playing with Benzene also. Eva & her bf had to go. Then Samantha wanted to go too. Then Mabel brought out her Braun Epilator for her to see whether she want anot. Sam said another day lah, then I took it & had a look & wondered how it worked... haha! And wondered how painful it really is... Well well well, what can a bunch of girls with an epilator do to a guy? Epilate him of course! Haha! And poor me became the first guy they ever know to be epilated. Whereabouts? My beard la! Just nice (or not nice) I didn't shave today, then the length was supposedly good for epilating. In case some of you don't know yet, to epilate means: To remove a hair from a part of the body by forcible extraction, electrolysis, or loosening at the root by chemical means. In this case, it's the first: forcible extraction at the root. And NOT by chemical means! Darn!
Whoo-oo-oo!!! Let me tell u. The pain! Oh, the pain! Excruciating would be undermining it. Let me take my hat off to the girls who use the epilator often. *takes hat off* Then again, their hair (or fur) is not as thick as mine is. So maybe the pain they feel is different... less... Anyways, it was quite an experience! Haha! Mabel was the one epilating me. She says she enjoys it coz I'm the only guy she knows who's crazy enough to do such things. Haha! Makes me wonder how waxing feels... =P So now, my face is officially epilated. But there're hairs which are too short or in-grown or something la, still needs to be shaved. Haha! Cool man!
After that, went TM for Starbucks with Daphne, Mabel & Aaron (I didn't know he was called Aaron till today). Chit chatted for awhile, had coffee, had diarrhea, then we went off le... 7pm, I was still at Tampines Interchange waiting for 72. Supposed to be at Shawn's already. Haha! Anyways, when I alighted 72 to change to 53, I had the urge to go toilet! And I was in the middle of nowhere! Ok, I was in Hougang but there weren't any toilets nearby. Shit! So I could only bear with it till I reached his place. Imagine the relief in his toilet... haha! Then we cooked porridge & fried some chinken bits & what-not. Played Heart Attack & 99 & 88... then it was time to come back... but before that, I had 2 & a half plastic cups of red wine... just to help Shawn finish up a newly opened bottle.
Now I'm back here, typing. Feeling I need to go again... thinking I should sleep soon... thinking... thinking... ... dreaming... ... .. .
... of her. She's always on his mind. Anytime, anywhere. And when he's on hers, all she needs to do is call, and he'll be there. At least for now... for now, he'll be there.
"And I miss you love...
... I'm not, not sure.
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just passed
In the crowds of all the people...
... and I miss you love..."
-Silverchair: Miss You Love
Love me
if you
dare...
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22 loh...
Hai... too tired last night to log on for an entry.
Had diarrhea yesterday... woke up at 6am to go toilet... crap. Then the rest of the day was ruined... stupid diarrhea. Anyways, went airport in the evening for dinner... BK Chinken Sandwich. After that went to the viewing mall to look at Ian run around. Used dad's 350D with a 18-55mm to shoot him @ ISO1600 1/60s. No flash required! After shooting for about an hour, we left the mall, walked around some more, went toilet some more, then go home le. 53 was surprisingly long! By the time we got home it's like 11pm liao. Left the place at 9.40pm like that. So 11pm, diarrhea some more, bathed, lie around the house, then I was dead tired. Plopped on the bed & slept till morning like 7am like that. Had the diarrhea feeling but I wanted to sleep more, so I slept. Haha!
Later going to Mabel's for steamboat lunch. Think I'll just buy some porridge from downstairs. Don't think I'm up to steamboat right now. Church peeps are gonna play Captain's Ball lor! Wah lau... I wanna play! But they're meeting @ 3pm, so I don't think I can make it. I'll still be with all my sisters. Haha! *sigh*
I should start preparing soon...
He misses her still, even after meeting her for a couple of hours. You must be bored reading about how he misses her. But still, he misses her. Longing for her hug, her kiss. Longing to be with her, always.
Love me
if you
dare...
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Monday, January 30, 2006
21st! No, not century. Just post.
"Her skin is like velvet...
... her eyes when she's smiles...
... her touch would be tender,
her lips would be warm."
Her eyes so captivating,
her face so alluring.
She's so beautiful,
she's my everything.
He looks at her... at her skin, so flawless; at her eyes, so beautiful (a heavy understatement); at her lips, so soft & warm. He can still smell her fragrance after she's gone... oh her sweet sweet smell... unforgettable.
Love me
if you
dare...
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Sunday, January 29, 2006
Post Number 20! Yesh!
HAPPY CNY!
(If u don't know what it means, it's Chinese New Year.)
Wah... this morning went church so happy. Haha! See everybody wear nice nice! Actually, most Sundays, most ppl wear nice enough. Just that with the CNY spirit, everyone seems brighter & more cheerful! Yay!
Service was a hokkien-mandarin translation. The speaker didn't really have many points to bring across but he kept emphasizing on reading GOD's Word daily & how you'll feel life is different from the day you start. I agree totally man! Ha! Really... If you have yet to try it, START TODAY! Yes! Today means whenever you're reading this! The Bible is FULL of GOD's promises to us! If we don't read it, we'd never know what's ours to claim! So sad...
Anyways, after service went around shaking everybody's hands. Haha! I love the human touch. It conveys much more feeling than mere words or text. Sometimes I can be too physical... *tsk tsk* Everyone tells me that. Haha! But of course, I didn't today la. After a short while of wishing everyone a happy new year, I left with my aunt (for those who know, it's Eugene's parents aka Hansel's parents aka Caleb's parents.) and my uncle to my uncle's brother's place I think. Haha! Everyone thought I was Eugene can! So silly... haha! Then my aunt & uncle also keep trying to confuse them. They say "Wah! Eugene so skinny already ah? Change alot hor?" Haha! Crap lor... Anyways, we disclosed my true identity in the end la... and I got extra ang baos! Yay! Wee!
Then we went through the usual places... so boring. Nothing to do... just sleep at the sofa... slept for about 3h+... Haha! So lame. In the end, couldn't take it, got up & snapped some photos... Hee! Then at night went my dad's brother's place... Tampines... Had KFC & watch The Core... Science-tis-fic show requiring geographical know-how too! I like! Haha! In the end, left around 11pm. Just got back not long ago... Tiring day eh? Haha!
But it's not without its returns... RED PACKETS! Hee hee! Lemme count 'em...
[awhile later...]
22 x $2 = $44
1 x $5 = $5
17 x $10 = $170
1 x $50 = $50
Total: $269
And I just got my cheque from 3M! Haha! All the books... The most number of books I've ever touched. Don't think many people would've touched so many books too. Haha! $279! I'm $548 richer! Yes! Graphire4 here I come!
I'm gonna sleep a cash-y sleep! G'night!
He dresses up & grooms himself, wanting to smell nice & look good. But he didn't get to hug her today. *sad* And then he misses her so much throughout the day. At night, he wanted to visit her coz she's still sick, but she says he's crazy! He's not okay... he just really loves her & misses her. Cannot ah? Happy New Year darlingest!
Love me
if you
dare...
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Saturday, January 28, 2006
19th approaching 20!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!
Yep! Just had dinner at The Olive Tree... Intercontinental Hotel, Bugis Junction. Hmm... I'd say the food wasn't fantastic, no. But there are nice dishes! Yep! For example... COLD PRAWN! Or prawnSSS! Haha! My, were they big! How big? Well, normally you'd have to eat a whole 30-50 prawns to fill the plate with shells. The prawns they had, I ate 12 and the whole plate was filled with shells already! Yeah man! That's how big they are! And succulent too! Juicy, cold, crunchy prawns! The juices were squirting all over the place! Hahaha! Ok, enough about the prawns. The Bread Pudding is nice too! Haha! Yum! With Vanilla Sauce (at least, I think it is...)! Yup! Nice man! Aiyah, forgot got what other food already... *pffft*
Morning went Chinatown with Fen & Qi... Haha! So long never see them, they still look the same, if not prettier*! Walked around, talked alot, still the same as last time... reminiscence... Anyways, ate at Maxwell Market. Then walked some more until 2.30pm. Planned on having a slumber party @ Fen's tonight but apparently Wenxiang on duty, so it was cancelled. *sigh* Same thing 3 years ago. Haha! Oh wells, see next year how lor.
Ya, nothing much else happened today. At least, nothing that I want to bother to write now... I need to sleep. Tomorrow morning 9am service. *yawns* I'm SO-O-O full...
She's feeling too ill today and he's worried. He wants to take care of her... look after her... make her better. Tender loving care is what she needs, and tender loving care is what he wants to give. Can? Can't... *sigh* Missing someone is so hard to bear. He just wants to be with her every moment he can... and every moment he can't too.
Love me
if you
dare...
22:44
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Is it 18? It was just yesterday & I can't remember...
Heya! Seems like I've been coming online quite late lately... haha!
Played badminton @ TTSH today. Who'd ever think they have a badminton court on the grounds? Haha! So cool! Yeah... but only played for about 2h. Then I had a short bath, then lunched down at the Food Court, then went to Bishan to watch a movie... "I Not Stupid Too". It was quite a good show, I must say. Very touching... very moving. More than thrice, I fought to hold back my tears. Think I should watch "I Not Stupid" too. Haha! And yes, there were hilarious parts too! Not bad Jack, not bad at all... =)
Haha! It's not Prissie who spilled the drink... it was Zi Hui! Silly! =)
Well, after that, I had to meet my mum to pass her the house keys coz she left home & came back in the morning to take something, then she left again & left her keys plugged into the door. Stupid. Haha! Waste my time man. In the end, was late for steamboat with the guys. Met Jared @ Little India... oh man... the torture to one of my senses! Some more he took so long to come! When he finally came, we went down to Marina Bay to meet everyone else. By then we were like 1.5h late liao can! Haha! But whatever lah. Didn't eat much. Paid $10. Wah lau... not worth at all lor. Then stupid Grabby... I dunno la, he wasn't exactly irritating me but I just didn't have much appetite with him around. Oh wells...
Mum asked me to buy soft drinks! Haha! Surprising man... So I bought 1 large pet bottle of Zappel & 1 of Blazt. Then got a 1L packet of Yeo's Chrysanthemum and 2 cans of Pepsi Lemon, 2 cans of Mug Root Beer, 2 cans of Ginger Beer. Carried all in 2 plastic bags on my right hand... haha! Now my hand aches... dunno is because of the drinks or the badminton or the chopsticks during steamboat... and somehow I feel very sleepy... eyelids are drooping... think I better sleep soon. Meeting Fen @ 9.30am @ her place the bus stop. What should I wear? Hmm... Chinatown's gonna be so hot & humid & crowded la...
Is he jealous? Maybe sometimes. He feels insecure. He knows she loves him but she's just so beautiful & lovely and she can have whoever she wants. And there're so many who wants her too. =/
Love really is blind, huh? Hee hee!
Love me
if you
dare...
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Friday, January 27, 2006
I believe this is the 17th? So fast eh? Haha!
Hi! Yay! Qi confirmed his morning that we'll be going out on Saturday morning! And she asked Fen along too! So-o-o-o long never see them liao... will do lots of catching up with them. We're going Chinatown to walk the streets, enjoy the crowds, enjoy the noise, squeeze about in the microwave-like environment. Haha! We've been doing that every year ever since we got to know each other in poly, except the years I was in NS & Fen was in UK studying. So that's only 2yrs. Or was it 3? Then this year is my turn to go abroad... *sigh* Hope next year I'll be around to ask them out again. It's kinda like a... hmm... tradition? Not really, but u know what I mean. =)
Yup! This morning met Wendy & her friend (forgot his name coz I couldn't quite catch it when he introduced himself. Sorry Wendy.) who wanted a compact camera for general purposes. Hope my recommendation suits him well enough. The Canon ixus55. $597 inclusive of GST, a 512MB SD, an SD card reader, and an extra supposedly-higher capacity battery. Went to AP @ SLS to get it from Aki. Haha! Don't I sound like I know the place well? Heh! He called me a professional... haha! So farnie! Thanks, but I can't bear the title. Keke!
Oh, suddenly remembered something about this morning. Isn't it sad to see Singaporeans being so "considerate" on public buses in the busy mornings? Everyone's trying to squeeze up 76 this morning la, then the front part is like, even more packed than sardines can? Then I, being a wee bit taller than most, tiptoed & saw the rear of the bus... WAH!!! Empty space! Wah lau... move in la... I looked to see where the plug was. And guess what? Onions... sheesh. What's new? Oops... *slaps own mouth* It's not like I hate them or something... but the fact is that majority of them are selfish & inconsiderate enough so that majority of us (us being the likes of yours truly) generalize them as them. And we don't like them. How?
K, nvm. After that, I met Ester in school. Supposed to help her with her class deco stuff. Haha! Ya... So weird walking through her school la... Everyone's in uniform then I'm in black tee & black berms. Don't look like teacher, don't look like student, don't look like cleaner also... Anyways, we saw Joel also... bet he's gonna say something about us. Oh wells... *shrugs*
Hmm... what else happened today? *methinks* Nope, nothing! Alright! Time to sleep! G'night dudes & dudettes! Sweet dreams!
No piano lessons today. Got caught up in other things... She shouldn't feel too tired. At least she gets to rest better today. =)
Forever is still not long enough... *hugs*
Love me
if you
dare...
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
It's 16 isn't it?
Heys! Today was quite a happy day... =) Went to visit my godpa & godma. Bought them some egg rolls (love letters)... then in return they also gave me but theirs were hand-made ones! Cool! Haha! But I wonder how much of those I'd be able to eat... *sigh* Spent some hours there, then went to Heartland to meet Uncle Lim for dinner. Planned on eating half a chic-Ken but the nice stall don't have half left. So I had char siew rice (yes, again. Cannot ah? Haha!) then we crossed the road to the Punggol Nasi Lemak that row the corner shop to eat hokkien mee. K, I didn't eat la. Uncle Lim did... ate 2 plates of $3 some more... crazy. Where got ppl spend $6 on such food for dinner one? Well, apparently there is. Heh. Anyways, after that we looked at this "ge1 tai2" thingy @ the old Hougang Interchange. Very crappy, very lame. But behind the audience there's this other ritual thingy going on... Interesting leh. Haha! There's thing makeshift bridge thingy that a young ermm... priest? would cross over & over again, linging a handbell and chanting something and blowing this horn thingy. It was after a few rounds that Uncle Lim realised he's going round it once per zodiac animal. Aiyah, anyways, it was quite noisy and stuff la. And smoky & smelly. There's also this lamer girl on stage claiming that she's Sec 2 this year but she has a tattoo & she looks JC2 or older and she dances very exaggeratedly. So much so that when she jerks her body and the strobe lights are flashing, it reminds me of strobing a light so that a captured dragonfly with its wings flapping would look stationary and u find out the frequency of the strobes and you'll know how fast the dragonfly's wings are flapping. Understand? Doubt it... But anyways, it looked hilarious! Haha! But we left anyways, to Zitong's grandpa's wake. Stayed there till about 0020hrs then Sam sent me back. Thanks man! And now, after my bath, I'm sitting here typing this quite monotonously and wishing I were asleep. Tmr morning meeting Wendy & her friend to search for cameras... haha! Hope I'd be of help. =)
Wow... Long long long paragraph eh? I should sleep... it's late. *yawn*
She sees him before her day starts, and then in the middle of the day, and before her day ends. Such a beautiful day! And for all the time they spent together, they still miss each other right after they part. Come on man!
Her dance was painful... her legs hurt too much. He feels the pain too, but the pain's in the heart. If only he could take the pain from her, he doesn't mind if he hurt. Love is sacrificial. Innit?
Love me
if you
dare...
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Add-on to 14...
I don't wanna live without you, she says. (Which means she does not want a life without him, not she'll kill herself if he's not around. Haha!) Well, here's a song for her...
"How do I get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms need you to hold.
You're my world my heart my soul.
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life.
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, O, how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky.
There would be no love in my life,
There would be no world left for me
And I, Baby I don't know what I would do,
I would be lost if I lost you.
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life.
If you ever leave, baby you would take away everything.
Need you with me.
Baby don't you know that you're everything good in my life.
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby..."
-Trisha Yearwood: How Do I Live
Love me
if you
dare...
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14?
Ha! I actually started packing! Haha! No, I didn't manage to finish up... I merely did the outside sofa one. Hey! It's better than nothing ok! *pout*
Yup! That's what I did the whole day. Can u believe it? How unproductive can I get? Haha! Shite...
Watching X-Men Evolution... Sometimes u wonder if there are mutants with such powers. And if they did, are they from GOD? Like, are they humans with souls? Can they be Christians? The only mutants I know are those with Down's Syndrome & the likes... K, you don't call them mutants but genetically speaking, they are mutants right? So what kind of genetic mutations does it take for a human to like, "acquire" powers? Hmm... Why do I wanna be a mutant when GOD didn't create mutants? Or did HE?
K, I'm crapping. Gonna have dinner! Toodles! *waves*
Everyday, everything that he does, he misses her, he thinks of her... and he loves her. Ever so much! *muacks*
Love me
if you
dare...
20:11
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How many posts already? 13?
Had lunch with Ester today. Met her after sch. Haha! Heard she had some punishment thingy coz ppl in her class copied homework! Haha! So dumb! But it was until 2.30pm only la... not that bad.
Then I went to meet Wendy. Had dinner & dessert with her. Shared a bowl of laksa, whilst she ate durian ice-kachang & I ate this blueberry-soursop thingy. Nice fruits, both were, but not together. I shall try the blueberry-nata the next time round, IF there's a next time round. Then we bought some chips & went to Yishun Park & had a long chat. =) After that, I went up to her place to get the long-promised "lobster-curry flavored popcorn"! Haha! It wasn't as crispy anymore but it still tasted good. Dunno why she didn't like it. *shrugs* Anyways, while I was there, I tried to do something about her flickering monitor. Updated drivers... but still cannot. Think Acer's gotta change the monitor for a new one. =P
Whoa... tiring day man! I think I should sleep le... Good night!
She thinks the girl is advancing. He assures her not. She thinks there's yet another. He shushes her and gives her a kiss. There is no other who can replace you. Then he lists out all those who have also been captivated by her, and he knows just how lucky he is, despite all his shortcomings. =D Love is blind!
Love me
if you
dare...
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Monday, January 23, 2006
Tickets please!
Morning! Just received an SMS from Jared...
"Tickets confirmed. 17th Feb 9.55am. $840 for tickets, $290 for tax."
For one, I'm glad I still managed to get tickets. On the other hand, *sigh* It's a morning flight. Nobody will be there to see me off... =( Not that I want the whole terminal to be filled with my friends, but it's always nice to have people you love to send you away. Friday... Well, there'd be Bernice & Wendy. If possible, Carolyn & Jo too... I dunno. Oh wells. Guess it'll just have to be like that... sad. Even Mao won't be there.
"... the dawn is breaking, it's early morn.
The taxi's waiting, it's blowing it's horn.
Already I'm so lonesome I could die.
So kiss me & smile for me.
Tell me that you'll wait for me.
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
I'm leaving on a jetplane.
Don't know when I'll be back again.
Oh babe, I hate to go...
... Every place I go I'll think of you.
Every song I sing I'll sing for you...
... Now the time has come to leave you,
One more time, oh, let me kiss you,
And close your eyes & I'll be on my way.
Dream about the days to come
When I don't have to be alone..."
-Jewel: Leaving On A Jet Plane
He's leaving so soon. And this song says it so well... Oh, he feels like crying... feel the heartache... hear the heartbreak... *sob* {:<
Love me
if you
dare...
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
I think this is my 12th post...
Today we had an enjoyable time at Sunday School. Our normal Sunday Sch teacher wasn't around, so we didn't get to go through the first lesson of Assurance. Then next week also no class, have to wait till next next week le.
Oh, service was about why we want to and ought to follow Jesus. Because the end is near, and we'll all perish if we still remain hard-hearted. We shouldn't wait till "next time" coz there may not be a "next time" for us to wait till. How? Repent now! Drop everything & pick up your cross and follow Him now. Live your life for Jesus! Let Him come into your heart and be the King of your life! Yeah! That's what I want! That's what I yearn for. Shouldn't you too? Before it's too late? Makes you wonder, what happens if you ARE too late? Ever been to Haw Par Villa? The last time I went was a couple of years ago... Even then, the images portrayed freaked me out, like totally la. And I bet Hell isn't just that. It probably is infinitely worse... I used to wonder if u cannot make someone believe & follow Jesus by telling him all the wonderful things that will come to be, can you make someone a believer by scaring the faith into him? If it were me, I think it'd be quite effective. Haha! Seriously!
Ok... moving on.
Captain's Ball! Yeah! Fun! But I only managed to play 1 game. Coz everyone else were playing basketball & volleyball & netball... And even so, I didn't really run much. Hope I don't ache all over tomorrow... Haha!
Had KFC... yum! Yearned that for quite some time le... Aiyah, then came home. Went to Guardian & asked if I could photocopy the instructions for L'Oreal Feria Color Booster and the cashiers immediately said yes! Cool! So I did, for 10c. Then came home & tried out my hair dye that's been left on the shelf for 2 years plus! Haha! Now my hair's reddish purple... but can't really tell unless under light or backlit. Will see how long this lasts...
Hmm... I'm really just recording my days eh? Boring... I should spend some time typing some serious stuff about my life. So wild am I right now... and lazy too! Haha!
Sending her home is a joy to him. That's where they can be alone. That's when they can show their feelings. Though the journey's short, they enjoy every moment together. And after she's back, he misses her so much. It's incredible someone could think of another that much. Haha!
She was jealous of another girl. Whatever for, he said. My heart belongs to you. Do not doubt my love for you. There is nothing that girl can do to make me love you less. And she smiled a silly smile, and he imagines that smile, and he loves her even more! And they feel so blessed to have found each other. =)
Love me
if you
dare...
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
11th... YEAH!
"I grew up in sunday school
I memorized the Golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same
Because He changed my life when He became...
Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me
We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...
Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet you saying you've been...
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything to me
Lord, you're everything to me."
-Avalon: Everything to Me
Heard this song whilst waiting for Jared. I think it's quite, yet so like me. I want Jesus to be everything to me. Is HE? Am I letting HIM into my life? It may seem so to so many people, but I alone know. And I don't think so. I'm being too resistant, too hard-hearted. I know how great it is to have HIM centred in my life. I want to! But I'm always procrastinating. Too weak-willed am I. Too lazy am I. How can I break out of this? Am I able to do this? I'll try. I will... I WILL!
He misses her so much... there's nothing he can do or say right now to show her. Yet, something's straining inside to burst out! From him to her...
"Said I loved you but I lied. 'Coz this is more than love I feel inside. Said I loved you but I's wrong. 'Coz love could never ever feel so strong..."
-Michael Bolton: Said I Loved You But I Lied
Love me
if you
dare...
16:41
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Friday, January 20, 2006
10!!! I've maintained this thing for 10 days!
Haha! This is my 10th post! Yay!
Ok, without further ado, let me begin:
Morning: Haha! First thing that screwed me up is that I missed the timing for the 5.30am bus. And whilst waiting ultra-long for the next, I realised I forgot to bring out Mao's stuff! Very xian already lor. In the end, had my mum to bring it to me at AMK Central. 1 hurdle over. And just at this moment, I felt a springy sensation in my feet! Cool, I thought. Why? Lemongrass Deodorising Foot Powder Lotion from The Body Shop! [Dust off tired feet and absorb excess moisture blah blah blah... help you put your best foot forward.] Haha! It has to be it! Yep! That's about all the morning brought for me.
Afternoon: Grabby's being himself... SO himself. Sometimes I wonder what his purpose in life is... Of course, I can only speculate. And so happens that I came up with the idea that his sole purpose in life is to irritate all those around him. Maybe it's to train their patience? I dunno. But he's irritating alright. Much worse than Alex.
Did 865 books today. Very little hor? Haha! I also dunno why. Started work late I guess. But I wanted to finish up everything fast so I could go Changi Hospital to visit Siyan. In the end, found out she was discharged already. Haha! Crap! Thank GOD for that but I needn't have done so quickly then. Oh wells... Last day of work already. Glad I don't have to be with Grabby anymore. I've seen enough of him for the past 2 weeks. Luckily Mao's around. It's nice seeing her. She's a pretty face in the crowd & she's a real BIG relieve from Grabby. Haha! =P
Evening: On the way back, queued up for bus at Boon Lay Interchange. I was the first in queue. But when the driver came, suddenly, I'm like 4th le. Wah lau! Why're old people so full of themselves? They think they're old, they can do anything they want. They're given privileges to queues, entitled to cheaper stuff, allowed to win in a squabble etc... Hello! Why's that? Coz they won't be around much longer? Sheesh! Besides, what's the hurry to get on the bus? There're PLENTY of seats wat! Stewpig ah... Aiyahs, just a personal discontentment.
Anyways, met Ester at AMK, took 24 down to airport to send Nat off but by the time we got there, they've already gone in for half an hour already. In the end, just had dinner with Josh & Alex. Then sent Esther home, then went grandpa's place to collect 30 mandarin oranges. It's been a tiring day. Even 1 bus stop distance also can sleep lor. Hai. And I'm still alert enough to type so much. I'm surprised. Haha!
Oh wells, such a long entry about my day. Time for some thinking. Heard Avril Lavign's "Anything But Ordinary" on my phone. And I think to myself, yep! I'm like that. I'd rather be anything but ordinary. It's an identity. I'll be uniquely me. Ordinary blends with everyone else. Anything-but contrasts. I like contrast. Haha! Oh wells, just a thought... I should sleep. Good night everybody!
He got there just in time. She was sitting, waiting for him. And he crept past her, and crept up to her from behind, and he hugged her tight round the waist. Her slender figure jumped slightly from the surprise, and then softened in the warmth of his embrace. Smiling happily, they both faced each other & hugged tightly. One day apart and it's quite unbearable already. They missed each other so much... Then they said I-miss-you's and hugged & kissed for 15minutes. And then it's time to go. =<
They met again at dusk. The bus ride was a long one. But they liked it. Cuddled up at the back, enjoying each other's smell, warmth, presence... the entire journey was nice! And they had dinner, and then they went home. Another long journey, but they didn't mind. It meant more time together. Haha! He sent her to her door. They hugged once more and kissed good night. And another long night stretched out ahead of him...
He loves her so much...
Love me
if you
dare...
23:52
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Add-on to #9...
"I give her all my love.
That's all I do.
And if you saw my love,
you'd love her too.
I love her.
She gives me everything.
And tenderly
the kiss my lover brings,
she brings to me.
And I love her"
-Beatles: And I Love Her
Love me
if you
dare...
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9th post... It is the 9th right? It's getting hard to remember...
This morning! ARGH! Stupid onions! Stupid blankets! I really dislike them! (GOD help me on this one) I was on the MRT on the way to Boon Lay. Crowded, of course. Then this onion came on & stood so close to me for only-he-knows-why. So I shifted position to stand away from him. Then this lady leaning on the glass got off and I went to replace her. Then that stupid onion came to me again, and stood so close lor! And he STINKS!!! So I went away again, and he immediately took my place. The stupid clown... Was very pissed this morning... but anyways...
1312 books! That's how much I did today... Was in West Grove Primary. Nifty lil' place there. There's a miniature aviary with some pretty cool birds! Red Golden Pheasant, Yellow Golden Pheasant, and the rest I forgot le. And the pond is cool too! One edge is a whole fish tank! Very nice! I dunno how to describe la... but it's a cool idea. And the canteen's food was nice too! Cheap by my standards but apparently not so with Mao when I told her later.
Yup! Had dinner with her after work. Was sitting at her desk waiting for her to finish lessons... then I saw my Christmas gift to her hanging right infront on her desk! Aww... *touched* Anyways, ya, she was pretty tired and broody, and we didn't know where to eat. Ended up walking to a coffeeshop 15min frm her place. I had duck rice, she had duck kway teow. Then we shared another bowl of laksa. Haha! Didn't know a girl could eat so much.
Went home, got my mju:800 for Miky. Apparently his PC was interested at my requested price. Cool! If this deal is closed, I'm definitely getting the F11 man. Stupid me, go & listen to sales propaganda. Lesson learnt.
"... when you're here with me I just wanna lose me in your love..."
-Binocular: You
He so wanted to meet her today. But work's gotta be done. *sigh* Yes, they've to learn to live apart. It's so heart-rending. Who wants to live apart? Who wants to love apart? She misses him like crazy. Him too. But that's the way it's gotta be for now. =( And he thinks: I haven't even brought her out to a decent romantic dinner. What kind of boyfriend am I? And she thinks: I just want to cuddle with him. Seems like he's feeling lousy...
Love me
if you
dare...
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
8th post... is it 8th?
No work today! Went for Sakae Sushi tea buffet with Carolyn & Wendy. Ate 49 plates out of a calculated "hua suan" value of 60. Shìte! Fell short of 11 plates. 11 only lor! I'm sure I could've eaten that in half an hour...
Anyways, I was thinking about it today... I'm actually quite typical... as in, I'm just another typical guy. Aren't I? How sad... =( I always thought I was unique... special... different. And I don't try to be different. But I bet some I know think I do... as in try to be different. Just happens that I'm attracted to more abstract sense of fashion, colors, designs etc... Oh wells... becoming a plain Jane. Shux...
Someone told me today that I'm so much like a girl. (I'm a guy, by the way...) The way I think and express myself... Am I? Says there's no other guy she knows that's like that... haha! Well, I guess that's why I'm always around girls... coz I'm like one of them. And they are able to treat me like one of them. "Why're you always surrounded by girls ah?" Dr Koh Tse Yuen, who taught Drug Design & Developement, asked me once during some project. Haha! It was funny the way he said it... as if he longed for that too, someday. He's a VERY eligible bachelor, by the way... haha!
Anyways, that makes me a very contradicting character, no? Typical guy who behaves like a girl. What am I (wo)man?
"Lashes so unbelievably long... you thought it's fake! It's REAL!"
- déjàvu Fiberwig
Ever thought of someone constantly? Everything you see reminds you of that someone. He felt that way today. Clothes, accessories, even a cute pair of gloves that's of no use in this climate except for ice-skating. Missing her so much she appears everywhere.
Dance was cancelled. He couldn't meet her because he had made arrangements to be just nice. And then it was screwed-up. Wasn't her fault at all... he understands. But he can't help feeling disappointed. Is he craving for her too much?
Love me
if you
dare...
21:13
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Add-on to #7. Why do I keep having add-ons?
Timeless Love
"There's a special place in my heart
that only you can touch.
A place where I can go and feel you near.
Throughout the day I think of you.
I see your smile, I hear your voice.
And in my thoughts you lovingly appear.
The way we love each other
makes it hard to be apart.
So when I can't hold you in my arms,
I hold you in my heart."
-CityChain
Love me
if you
dare...
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
7th Post... Should be a long one. >:(
Heya! Haha! This is gonna be a long post man... Be prepared... I'm gonna rant! Here goes...
Today tagged only 795 books. But it took me till 1330h lor! Shitty machine keep screwing up & not producing the tags. Keeps getting stuck in the roller. *slaps machine over & over again* Didn't even eat lunch coz I wanted to get it over & done with by 12 la, then still cannot. Stupid Grabby went to eat lor, and didn't clock down the lunch timing. In essence, he's doing less work but getting paid the same. Not that I mind, I just feel like complainin'... ya. And he even did more books than me lor! Why? Coz most of the time I'm the one repairing the machine! Every time it screws up, he just goes & sit in some corner while I try to troubleshoot. Shit man. (Haha! Shit... =) *imagines a pile of shit*) Anyways, we're done with Bartley... Tmr's a rest day. Thursday we'll go West Grove. Haha! Then I'll meet Mao for lunch or dinner, depends on her time table. Yay! That's one thing to look forward to... a great contrast to Grab. Haha! Oops... =)
Anyways, ended at 1330h, then went Hougang Mall to buy a packet of $2 chic-ken ricé to bring back to Evonne's. Wait for 113 like so long can? Stupid lor... should've taken 87 or 151 or something... Change 3 buses also faster lor. In the end, reached back about 1540 like that. The pack was cooled already... but it wasn't all bad also. Then I played with Eyan (haha!) until Ester & Josh came over for tuition. And I played with him throughout too... then we all went for dinner, then I came home...
Sucky sucky home... Why? The moment I step in, dad asks, "Have you booked your air ticket? No? U think still got alot of time is it? I tell u, no more already. When u wanna go? I check for u now." Wah lau! I haven't even searched for it lor. And Jared also wants to look around first before deciding. And Jared's friend also, I'm sure. Then he goes straight to the SIA webby & finds that there's only 13th left. Sucks! Big time lor! It's the "2 pax 2 way for a few days only" kind. $500/pax minimum 2 pax. Then he say take it as a 1 way ticket... cheap. "Want or not? Want then book now already... U wait wait wait later don't have flight already I tell you. Haiyuh, u all ah... " C'mon man! No ticket then don't go lah! (of course, that's just pissed-off words. I'll find a way to go.) No point rushing me lor.. Jared and his friend also haven't confirm. And my mum! Wah liao... ppl talking on the phone, she keep lingering behind, trying to eavesdrop. Stupid. Then I ask her go away, she pretends she's dong something... Rustle plastic bag, look into the fridge... *pui* What can be more irritating? Talking to me! And that's exactly wat she did... talk to me while I was on the phone! Heh... whatever la. Anyways, I'm just ranting... haha! Who really cares?
Wah, really long hor? I should stop... Besides, it's been a long day. My legs are tired. My eyes are tired. I'm tired... *sigh* G'night...
He manages to get up! And he starts the day with her embrace... her warmth emanates through his body. And the day started good. =) Every morn, it's only 15minutes. It's not enough, but it'll hold. And then she met him again in the noon time. Short too, but they loved every moment of it! And then they met again at dusk. So near, yet so far. He's itching & craving for her touch. And then she had to leave... home... alone. And he feels so miserable. But she assures him it'll be alright. And they couldn't kiss each other good night. And she was a wee bit sad. And he was tearing at himself. Help... ... [The power of love...]
Love me
if you
dare...
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Monday, January 16, 2006
Add-on Post to #6 again.
"I love it when you sing to me. And you, you can sing me anything... I love it when you give me things. And you, you [ought to give me wedding rings] can give me anything."
-Peter Gabriel: Book of Love
Love me
if you
dare...
23:28
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6th Post! Yeah!
Hi again! I realised for the past few days, I've been typing too much. K, not too much, just too long. Nobody'd be interested to read all those crap... haha! So I'm gonna try cutting down the length...
Tagged 1355 books today... was trying to do it real slow but still did so many. Stupid. I was forced to take a break from 12.30pm to 1.30pm lor, coz the staff had this HAF ME thingy (Health and Fitness Monthly Exercise) and the PE teacher conducted it. Taught them some static exercises they can do at their desks... He had a real funny way of speaking... like Sihui. =D Oops...
K, am at Evonne's now... waiting for Uncle Lim to come back then we'll all go Bishan for dinner. Just thought I'd type now so I don't need to later. =) Hope I'd enjoy dinner. Haha! Yay!
He didn't see her yet... stupid boy. Couldn't wake this morning. And so he went to work without seeing her. And he couldn't concentrate at all the whole time. She just kept on appearing in his head... She's everywhere! And his heart is aching so much to see her, even for a few minutes. But that's quite impossible. And he thought of the future and he didn't know how he's gonna make it.
She was sleeping. He imagined her beautiful face glowing ethereally in the setting sun, and he longed to be there beside her, to kiss her gently, to see her resting form under the sheets. He wants to be the first person she sees when her eyes open. But all these are just a figment of his imagination... ...
Love me
if you
dare...
17:11
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Add-on for #5
"Words don't come easy to me..."
-F. R. David: Words Don't Come Easy
"There's no other way to better say 'I love you'..."
-Natasha Beddingfield: These Words
"More than words is all you have to do to make it real..."
-Extreme: More Than Words
Love me
if you
dare...
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
5th Post! Haha! How come all my titles so boring one?
Heya! Haha! Just got back from dinner with Pinky, Menace, Fred, Jo, Jas, Princess Fiona and Sihui. Sihui was performing with her school band @ Chinatown @ Hougang. Haha! She complained that it was a lousy pok pok place... haha! And that she had dusty chinken ricé for dinner. Ok, not her coz she managed to cover in time, but the rest of her friends did. Haha!
Anyways, today Sunday. Let's talk abt some church stuff. Haha! Service was cool... coz I wrote notes! Yay! It's quite a good feeling to know that there's reference to what you've learnt. Sort of like assurance. Speaking of which, Sunday school gave us a book on the Assurance of Faith or something like that. It's a workbook & we'll be using that in the weeks to come. Really looking forward to it! Yeah!
After that, I rushed to CJMYF to take some group photos for them. Yeah... After that, was enticed into playing games with them for the sake of grossing Alex out. Haha! We had to transfer marshmellows mouth-to-mouth. I somehow managed to get myself infront so that I started the chain, then I applied generous amounts of slobber on the side I was biting. Next in line was Pris. So she got the dry half. After her was Alex! And he had to gobble my half! Haha! It's so disgusting la! I was generous to the extent that u can see a droplet hanging on at the lowest end of the marshmellow! Haha! He was like, totally grossed out! Had fun... yeah. =)
Lunch was normal... abit draggy. But that's how it is all the time. Haha! Some of them went for basketball, some went shopping, some went home, some went elsewhere... We're everywhere la. Haha!
And now, I'm home. Well, not exactly home... Lor Ah Soo, to be precise. Lalala! Think I'm gonna sleep soon... G'night everyone!
It's been a month... It's been a MONTH!!! Yay!
Everything's passing so quickly... They went out walking... taking photos (finally)... chit-chatting... teasing & laughing. It was a happy day, though really short. She was happy. He was happy. And the embraces were warm... and the kisses were intoxicating. And the day was good. And they both were tired. And they will both sleep soundly & dream caramelled dreams of each other. And the morn shall come and they will embrace again. And they will kiss again... and they will love each other so much! and then the missing kicks in, and things won't be as merry...
Love me
if you
dare...
22:27
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
Add-on Post...
"She's always on my mind... from the time I wake up, till I close my eyes. She's everywhere I go, she's all I know..."
- Rick Price: Heaven Knows
Love me
if you
dare...
22:57
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4th post? Haha!
Hey there! Haha! Couldn't get online last night... stupid Johnson became clever. Then Abraham was lousy... always on & off... sucky connection.
Anyways, I wanted to update the number of books I tagged yesterday: 1481! Haha! It's more than the first day by abt 300 but we worked for an extra half hour or so... Oh, and Grabby was irritating... haha! As usual. He kept trying to talk back to anything I said... Well, it felt that way then... *sigh* I asked the wrong person to work with me man... Totally forgot about Debby... she needed a job too and this was an easy one. Oh wells, till next time maybe?
Saturday: Woke up at 7am... laid in bed till like 7.15am, then decided I better start changing & washing up before I'm late. Jared couldn't wake up... haha! His stupid ring tone so soft... In the end, we met at Serangoon MRT at like 8.30am lor... We were supposed to be at Cairnhill Place at 8.30am! But anyways, the timing became just nice. X-ray then medical... Total cost about $110. Then went home to wash the dirty laundry as well as take new ones. Haha! Yay! Wearing pink & purple tmr! Nice combi!
Then went to church to do the "chun1 lian2" thingy... Adults just don't listen do they? Maybe I wasn't feeling very good today already so I was like, a lil' grouchy? But anyways, he didn't do anything to piss me off la. Just felt like I'm only there to provide manpower, not knowledge. So be it, I thought. And so, the day passed quite uneventfully... Dinner? Char siew rice! Yes! But it wasn't delicious... too tough, the meat was. Why'm I typing out every detail? Who's interested? Lame...
He's been missing her since he left her... So short ago only, yet so strongly he feels. The taste of dinner lingers on his lips... well, more like the taste of her. The call lasted short... REAL short. Inconvenience played its part well. And now he misses her so deeply... it hurts. So irrational! Are you sure it hurts? Yes, of course!
The morrow will come soon enough... it's ok... it's ok... ...
Love me
if you
dare...
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
3rd Post? Haha! Sounds boring.
Hello! Haha! I'm updating my 3rd post! Cool!!! (for those just browsing by, I'm kinda crazy. And easily fascinated) Well, mmm... once again, what do I type? Work again? Yeah! Of course! What else can I type? Haha! I lead a boring life... =[
Yeah, work. Today, I tagged 1156 books! In ermm... *mental calculation: 8am to 3.30pm = 7.5h... minus half hour lunch = 7h* 7 HOURS! That's like 165 books per hour! Oh wells, who cares? Just me I suppose... and Barley Sec's librarian. And 3M's staff, of course. Ok, end of work stuff. It's too boring right now.
I'm at Evonne's house now. Using Johnson's wireless network. Haha! Stupid boy he... haha! Ian's so evil... kept pulling me outside to watch him eat Konnyaku Jelly. Haha! But nevertheless, cute! Haha! SO CUTE lor... Aiyah, I'm just typing mindlessly... can't really concentrate. Am in the midst of tuition... conducted by Uncle Lim to Clarence & Ting & Sam. It's interesting to participate in the lesson, even though I might be more of a distraction. =D But it's ok... haha! His sessions are full of crap anyways.
Oh ya! Going pasar malam later! Yeah! I'm gonna buy tapioca kueh (what's kueh in English?)... and maybe Taiwan sausage and muah chee and tea egg! Haha! I dunno... I shall eat what I feel like later. Meeting Pinky too I suppose.
(a few hours later...)
Ok, back from night market. Pinky came back with us, haha! Ate tapioca kueh & TuTu kueh! Yay! Yum! Then had some pastries made by Ting's mummy... haha! Of all the ingredients, I had to pick the sausage one... stewpig. But it's ok. I eat almost anything. =) Then we had white wine... not very nice but yeah. =P
Bathed... now Uncle Lim & Pinky is looking at the latter's old com... trying to salvage anything that's of worth for his new com. Haha! But the thing is, 3 of us know nuts! But it's fun to explore though... =)
Oh wells, time to sleep! A promise is a promise!
A short short call is enough to make her sleep well... but not for him. It's way too short. Doubtful that he'd fall asleep right away. Missing her so so so much... His only consolation is in a few hours...
Love me
if you
dare...
20:20
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Second Post
Hi! Yay! 2nd post! Haha! I'm updating this the 2nd time! Hmm... let's see... what to say, what to say...
Ok, I worked today! Haha! At this library in Bartley Sec. I was with 3M! Cool eh? Haha! U don't know what's 3M? It's the company that produces 3M tapes (as opposed to Scotch brand Tape), Super Glue, Post-It Notes etcetera... Ya. They had this contract thingy for me to sign. And it had some of the weirdest conditions I've ever read. Maybe it's because I haven't read much before... but I was laughing as I read it... Can't remember what already. I'll input tmr, IF I remember. =) Anyways, in case you're asking what I did, I tag books with a metal strip so they won't get stolen. How? There's this metal spade thingy that had teflon tape stuck to the edge. Then u put it into a slot in this machine which clamps the spade thingy and pastes this metal strip onto the teflon edge. Then u grab a book & stick it in the middle pages somewhere... and WAH-LA! 1 book down, 9,999 more to go. Weeee! Anyways, I did 195 today in abt 1.5h. Slow. Oh ya, jio-ed Grabby along tmr... hope he's interesting to work with. Haha! And poor Pinky couldn't work today coz of his mane. Stupid principal... Barley (it's been deliberately misspelled) Sec...
Oh, then I went for X-ray & medical check-up also. Haha! Or rather, I was supposed to go. But Jared printed the wrong forms to fill up. So we made another appointment for Saturday morning, 8.30am. Ya... then after that met mum for dinner @ Sumo. Cheapo Jap food but edible. And now I'm here! Typing this! Oh wells...
Dance was tiring... the poor girl. But as long as she enjoys it, who's to stop her? He met her today, just to send her home. Elated! Long hugs & muacks linger on his mind. Suddenly, he misses her again. Craziness!!!
Love me
if you
dare...
21:24
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
My first post
YES! My very first post... Finally able to get this thing up the way I want it to look. Haha! Anyways, hmm... what should I put here? It sure feels weird typing all these out. Like, talking to myself. Haha! Crazy...
Oh wells, who cares? I'm crazy! You're not! (who's you, by the way?)
Read something interesting today: "I don't suffer from insanity; I enjoy it!" I suppose that says it!
Ok! Hmm... let's see. I shall start by typing what everyone does: their day.
It's been a lazy day... at home... with mum. Raining on & off... yadayadayada... Forget it. Talking about the day is boring, even for me. Haha! Or maybe coz it's been a boring day la, huh?
Well, let's go cook something then... Alfredo pasta. Instant, of course. =)
She's got tuition today. He wished he could send her home but alas, that was not meant to be. Still, he misses her like crazy.
Love me
if you
dare...
22:43
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