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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

FinallY!

Hey!

Hahaha! Finally got the new skin I was working on to be working properly here... Stew pig. All the codes were making me crazy! Haha! But then, it's such an accomplishment when I finally made sense of them... and managed to solve the problem!

Ok, I won't blog much. Basically, I'm just gonna say that this is my last week of school already. So fast... Next Saturday is my first paper... Virology. Am quite apprehensive about it actually. But before that, I have to hand in my insect collection come Friday. =( Didn't manage to get all the Orders required. Lacking of 5 Orders... It's difficult coz it's winter? And some of them, I've never seen before, so I can't get them... *sigh* But then I've got 30 odd critters already la... hopefully they'll pull my marks up abit. But I'm kinda giving up on finding more exotic insects already...

And I've gotta submit an abstract on a seminar I've had on Monday this Friday too. That one's not too bad. Think it'll be quite easy. 200 words. And Sassan says he'll be lenient. Haha! I wonder how lenient.

Yeah, that's about it for this week. Hopefully I can go OCF this Friday... haven't been going for the past 3 weeks liao... so busy with all the stupid assignments & presentations. Then next week onwards, it's studies till the end!

Please pray for me, my exams. Virology's on the 10th of June. Insect Science on the 19th, and Arthropods & Human Health on the 22nd... I guess I really need wisdom for Insect Science... it's quite scary since I only get to learn from a CD-ROM... Thank you all. =)

Alrights, that's all for now. I gotta go do my abstract writing already.

See ya!

"... Is there someone you know,
You're loving them so,
But taking them all for granted.
You may lose them one day,
Someone takes them away,
And they don't hear the words you long to say

I would give anything I own,
Give up me life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own... "

-Bread: Everything I Own

Yes darling, I would give everything I own. I hope I'm not taking you for granted. If I am, please let me know... I love you...

Love me if you dare... 19:57
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Thursday, May 25, 2006

Missing her...

Hmm... I do have some things to say. But I'm just feeling quite xian. Basically the past few days, I've been doing the stew pig GBL2. There's really quite limited stuff to write about the history of WNV as well as the virus itself in terms of its makeup and life cycle. It's all pretty standard for flaviviruses. Anyways, ya. *sigh* Next week is the last week of the semester already. Time really flies. Another 4 of these and I get a degree with honours, IF I get honours in the first place.

Hai... dunno la. The past few days I've just been feeling quite xian. Very, in fact. What's happening? *confused* Maybe this is what Vidhya felt before she went home? Hmm... nah... don't think so. She's really close to her family. She just misses home too much. As for me, I miss my friends. Especially a special few who've made a difference in my life. And the nights gets lonely too... many times. And it's getting cold nowadays? The last 2 nights were like 10°C or so lor. That temperature is fine y'know... until the winds start to blow. Whoa... that's where the hairs stand at attention & your teeth start chattering & your body muscles just start spasming involuntarily (most ppl just call it shivering). But it's quite fun to be wearing just a sleeveless tee & berms in the wind. Haha! It's not often u get to feel such cold. Haha! Mai would be saying "Gila Kane" right now... Yep! Haha!

Maybe she doesn't believe... maybe she's worried. Maybe she's insecure? But he really only loves her. There could be others, but she's the only one is his eyes... really. =/

"Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have;
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have.

Little things I should have said and done,
I just never took the time.
You were always on my mind.
You were always on my mind.

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times;
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine.
If I made you feel second best
Girl I'm so sorry I was blind.
You were always on my mind.
You were always on my mind.

Tell me, tell me that
your sweet love hasn't died.
Give me, give me one more chance
to keep you satisfied,
Satisfied..."

-Elvis Presley: You Were Always On My Mind

Yep! I know, it's abrupt. But I really don't feel like typing already... Sorry girls (I don't recall giving my blog to any guys. Did I?)

Love me if you dare... 14:16
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Monday, May 22, 2006

I Only Wanna Be With You...

Missing her badly too... To resist the urge to embrace saps his strength. And he feels so low when he's alone...

"I don't know what it is that makes me love you so,
I only know I never want to let you go.
'Cause you've started something,
Oh can't you see?
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me.
It happens to be true:
I only want to be with you.

It doesn't matter where you go or what you do,
I want to spend each moment of the day with you.
Look what has happened with just one kiss?
I never knew that I could be in love like this.
It's crazy but it's true:
I only want to be with you.

You stopped and smiled at me
And asked if I'd care to dance.
I fell into your open arms
And I didn't stand a chance.
Now listen honey,

I just want to be beside you everywhere,
As long as we're together, honey, I don't care.
'Cause you've started something,
Oh can't you see?
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me.
It happens to be true:
I only want to be with you.
No matter what you do,
I only want to be with you."

-Me First & The Gimme Gimmes: I Only Want To Be With You

Yes, I only want to be with you... always.

Love me if you dare... 11:35
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Saturday, May 20, 2006

Saturday at noon... relaxing abit. =)

Heya~

*si-i-igh* It's nice to relax at home doing nothing much in particular after such a long time of assignments. Listening to soothing music & smelling the fragrance of cooking rice. Amazingly, the title of the song I'm listening to now is called Take Five. Haha!

Ok... let's see. Since Tuesday, what have I been doing? Tuesday I submitted the PBL2 document to Cassie, and she compiled it. Hmm... Wednesday? *thinks* Oh ya, I pinned my insects, those that I caught on Tuesday... I think. Yeah. K, wait... my rice's done. Gonna prepare the other dish first...

*pause*

Ok... it's heating up... where was I? Oh ya... Wednesday. Then I went to sch to wait for Shuxian to walk her home... otherwise she'd be walking back alone lor... so dark & so cold... *shudders* She was rushing her programming (they call it CSSE - which I dunno stands for what) with her group. They were rehearsing la, so I just sat there & listened to Michael & Kathy present. Michael's cool... haha! Smooth... =)

Thursday! Hmm... Finished sch at 1pm. Came home, Daphne drove us to Toowong Village. There I bought my bike rack, finally. Haha! $24. And bought 3 blocks of 250g Wonka chocolate for myself & 2 blocks for Daph. Went down to Coles, bought a total of 13 cans of Chunky soup at $1.99 each! Haha! Shiok! In fact, that's what I'm eating right now... Hearty Irish Lamb Stew with plain rice. Tastes so shiok! Haha! Hmm... what else? Eggs? Yeah... dunno what else la. Anyways, got home, cooked for 5 of us (Daph, Max, Sue, Jared, myself), then after dinner I sat down to do some research on WNV (West Nile Virus... did I mention this previously?) for the GBL2...
Note: GBL & PBL are 2 different things. Group Based Learning & Problem Based Learning.

Went sch at around 10+ or so I think, to wait for Shuxian again. But I brought my work along also coz I know she'd take longer tonight... Friday was her actual demonstration. Expected completion - 2am. I did my Arthropods prac, all the stupid ticks... *grrr* And after that, prepared my PBL2 presentation for Friday, on Lyme Disease. Whoever heard of Lyme Disease man! I've never heard of it till the PBL question. *pfft* Prepare finish le then I did my GBL2 research also... do do do... then felt kinda tired. Haha! See the time, wah! 3+ loh! And Shuxian's group are still rehearsing & touching up. Haha! Could see they were all tired le... Kathy's eyes were SO-O-O red! Anyways, they did 1 last rehearsal and Michael & Kelvyn left. Haha! Shuxian & I left about 4.25am, Kathy & Patrick stayed back (apparently till 6am, touching up this & that). So late already, I just slept over at her place lor... Woke up at 8am, printed my notes & stuff, then headed to sch. 9am got project meeting (supposedly to go thru the presentation slides) but it only lasted till 9.30am (coz we didn't!)... haha! Lecture's at 10 so I went to the labs to look for Vivian's group. Haha! All wear black except DG. He wore a white shirt & a white vest, so nice! He's the presenter. Ya, talk abit, their demo went well, then I had to head off to class liao. After that came back find them again, then Shuxian also finished her demo, then we went off le lor. Wanted to meet up with Cassie to see if there's anything she needed help with but she said it was alright, we'll meet at 1pm. And that was only like 11+ lor. So called Shux & asked if I could go her place with her. Intended to sleep for like an hour before meeting Cassie but ended up chatting with Shux. Haha! Anyways, once again, the meeting didn't go thru the slides. Haha! We just saw our slides & went for presentation le.

According to my standards, we were like, totally crap! Haha! But during the Q&A, Scott O'Neil (lecturer cum head of SIB) asked us some questions and Cassie & Luke were able to answer them... and Scott said we were excellent! Haha! Down here is really weird lor. Anyways, I'm just glad we were "excellent". Hahaha! Stayed back for all the presentations except the last one coz I had to meet Ying. Surprisingly I was able to stay awake! Haha!

Ya, after that came home, so xian... didn't feel like doing anything. Ate dinner, then Vivian & Daph cooked also, then cannot finish so I gobbled up the rest. Intended to go drinking with Damien & Shux & Barry they all but Shux forgot her ID, so we went to eat pancakes! Haha! THE ULTIMATE (I believe I mentioned this before) is so totally Ultimate! I just couldn't get enough of it. And Shux & Daph couldn't too, and they were saying next time they come, they're gonna order that too. Haha!

Took a cab home last night. Wah, the meter worse than Adelaide's one lor. In Adelaide is jumps 10c every 4.5seconds. Here, I was looking & laughing! 10c every 2seconds can?! Anyway, sent Shux back, then Sue Daph & I got home & looked at this:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Singlish

and edited some stuff & read & had a really good laugh at how Singlish was made to sound like a whole new language and it's really exotic & all... Go read it if u have the time! Haha!

Then I slept at 3am.. haha!

Woke up just now at 11.30 when Shux called me. Washed up, cooked lunch, and here I am, typing. Ok, I think I should continue with my research on WNV. *bleah* Sux... but, what to do? Hai. Maybe I'll go sch with Shux to find DL DG & Barry...

She's sick, and for so long, he couldn't do anything about it. He wished himself back by her side, taking care of her, serving her in every way, loving her, nursing her back to health. *wishful thinking* Sorry dear... I can't be by your side when you needed me most...

Love me if you dare... 10:15
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Tuesday... time flies...

Hey~

*sigh* So tiring... Yesterday especially. Dunno why. Kept sleeping. Haha! Was supposed to finish up the PBL2 report to email to Cassie (my PBL Groupmate) by night... k, not supposed. I aimed to, so today would be freer. But I went Shuxian's place to do, then the weather so nice, and I was so sleepy and all... haha! Slept on the floor in the living room with my head on the queen sized bed. 7pm, Shuxian woke me up to study. Haha! So lethargic can... wah lau... Then I read & read the stupid journals... (or articles, they're the same to me) Basically every paper implies the same thing: Lyme Disease is NOT endemic in Australia. And they all refer to the same references! Haha! So I added a few lines to my report, then started to edit the point-forms to sentences. Do do do, so xian can. So I decided to go home. Haha! Wah seh! Drizzling outside lor! Xian... how to cycle home? Can't la! So I called Daphne and asked if she could pick me up if they were gonna eat at Hawken. She said can, but they're not eating at Hawken... she's just coming to pick me. Haha! So nice... Thank you Daph! And Max, for ur car.

Got home, laid down on the sofa, watched Big Brother with Daphne, but didn't know what was going on, so I turned around & closed my eyes. The next thing I knew, it was 11pm. Haha! So I bathed & cooked instant noodles. Then do (or tried to do) my report until like 2+, then decided I'll just finish up tmr. So I slept.

Ok, what abt Saturday & Sunday? Well, I can't really remember. Oh, ya, I was reading up on PBL2's Lyme Disease. =P So lame lor. Hai... what else? Hmm... Oh ya, and I completed the logo for the church camp also. Haha! Yeah, I guess that's all I did over the weekend. How exciting...
-_-

Today went to catch some more insects. Haha! There was this beautiful butterfly that I just can't seem to catch lor. Too evasive. And it's got wings when all I've got is an arm (k, 2...) and a net. It kept fluttering around the same area so I thought it would be easy to catch it. But after I think half an hour of chasing it, it doesn't seem to be just fluttering around the same area... it actually seemed to be mocking my lousy butterfly catching skills! The lil' critter is mine, I thought to myself. But after chasing it some more, it decided to leave me & look for other more thrilling stuff. So I was stranded there with 3 butterflies. Ah wells, better than nothing.

Oh, this afternoon chatted with Dad online. I asked him if I could get a new phone: Nokia 6280. It's on offer at $10/mth for the phone on $29 Cap Plan with minimum $20 monthly spend, meaning every month, I'll be paying at least $30 for the phone & plan, for 24mths. Alright what, hor? He ask me why I want a new phone if my old phone is still fine, I said coz it's cheap. Then he said he just got a phone too... from China. Cost him S$700. Then he said up to me lor... I see how la. But he's got no money for me already, maybe I need to work part-time. I'm sorry dad. But why then did u say ok to my Melbourne & Tasmania trip? That's like $1k+ lor... Sue already booked the tix... =(

Nvm, I'm gonna start working. Maybe end of year I go back SG, then next year I don't go back liao... work here earn money better. I need the money now... not just to ease my cashflow but to ease my dad's burden too. So work becomes a neccessity. I just hope things'll be fine back home. Especially my sister... She's gotta work now to support herself, according to her. And her education has come to a stand-still... a diploma-holder. Of course, I'd want her to go further, but apparently dad doesn't have enough money for that. Shit... I feel so bad can. Do I even need this degree? And look at my choice of study? What can I do when I graduate? I dunno. *sigh* Yes, it's my interest & all, but that's all --- interest. Rice-bowl material? Doesn't seem so right now... but GOD has HIS plans for me... that I'm sure. So Father, do lead me in my choices and my life. And meanwhile, help my family to cope with life comfortably enough, if not the same as before or better. I really don't deserve this u know? Why should I be the one to study overseas? Shawn wanted to too, and so does Evelyn. I don't wanna be seen as the pampered one. I'm not pampered...
am I?

*whimpers*

Is there something wrong? He can't imagine. It could only be him... what has he done? Neglect? Yes, that must be it... Don't be blue darling, coz that blues me too. He misses her so much... aching... *sob*

"Crazy...I'm crazy for feelin' so lonely.
I'm crazy...crazy for feelin' so blue.
I knew you'd love me as long as you wanted...

... and crazy for cryin',
And I'm crazy for lovin' you."

-Leann Rimes: Crazy

Love me if you dare... 17:59
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Friday, May 12, 2006

Finally, another load off my shoulders... but still alot more.

Halo! (I never understood why ppl use this word. It exists u know? It means a glowing ring, usually associated with the saints and angels)

Hey, haha! I know I know... very long nv blog already. U don't know how busy I was with my assignments ok. K, maybe throughout the week I haven't really been doing constantly, but it's enough to stop me blogging even a short entry.

Firstly, I've been catching lots of insects... or trying to catch lots of insects. Been cycling around the place searching for the more exotic ones. Then there's Virology Prac also. Need to do the stupid write-up of all the pracs, and also the report on WNV... Majority of u probably don't know but WNV stands for West Nile Virus. I won't delve into the depths of virology. Suffice to say, it's really a headache, the project that we did.

Ok, for those who might (but I highy doubt so) know, I just wanna type it in here la. It's what I understand of it:

"WNV has a protease encoded in a gene called NS3, which cleaves the gene at functional parts in order for the virus to be infectious. In order for NS3 protease to cleave these sites, it must bind to NS2B, which is a cofactor found in the NS2B gene. So, it has been found that if NS3 is not able to cleave the sites, the virus cannot become infectious. And it has been found that if any of the cleavage sites has its amino acid residue changed, NS3 also cannot cleave. And it has also been found that if an amino acid residue of the 40amino acid long NS2B is changed, affinity of NS2B and NS3 will be altered so that they do not bind to each other, thus NS3 will be unable to cleave, rendering the virus uninfectious. This has been an area where virologists think has the potential for antiviral drugs to curb WNV. Hence, our project is to mutate each of the 40amino acid residues to Alanine so that we can see which residue plays an important role in inhibiting NS2B from binding to NS3."

Get it? No? I don't blame u. It took me a couple of hours in the library with Mai to realise this. Haha! Ya, so anyways, that would be the kinda crap I've been dealing with for the past week. And others too... for those who know, such as Western blotting, Coomassie Blue staining, E. coli transformation and mutation etc etc... bleah. Stupid la.

And the insects so hard to find can! Hymenoptera has so many species! Hymentoptera is the group that consists of bees and ants and wasps etc... insects with 2 pairs of wings and a sting or bite that may or may not be toxic. Ya, everything I catch happens to be hymenoptera! Otherwise, it's the Diptera... true flies. Insects with only 1 pair of wings. Ya! Can't find Mantodea (praying mantises), can't even find Blattodea (cockroaches) can! Wah lau...

Ok ok, enough science.

Been sleeping really late lately also. Like 3 or 4am in the morning? Last night I rushing my reports, I slept from 4 to 5 I think. That's all. And the previous nights also like that... very tiring. Haha! Mai said my eyebags are huge. Haha!

Oh, and I dyed my hair blue! Haha! Fudged it (Fudge is a hair care brand and they have this semi-permanent dye that lasts for abt 20 washes) with 3yr old Fudge. Seems like the dye spoil le... so when this blue one washes out, I'm gonna buy a new Fudge. Purple Haze! Check it out:

http://www.fudge.com/fudge/main/index.php?select=semi-permanent&ID=23&MID

Raspberry Beret looks nice too. See how lor... $16 each.

Hmm... next assignment: Arthropods & Human Health PBL. Topic: Lyme Disease. So lame...

Aiyah, sorry la... My whole head is filled with assignements right now. The fact that I just got Virology off my mind temporarily pulls in other upcoming assignments. And exams too! Wah seh... die sia. If I'm not wrong, 10th, 13th, 22nd... stupid... stretch over such a long period. But nvm, at least I got time to study for the 22nd one.

My well-being... hmm, let's see. Health-wise, so far so good. 2 nights ago had a very slight dry cough but I was alright after drinking Nin Jiom Pei Pa Gao mixed with hot water. That's all I guess. Sleepy lor. But coffee, which didn't use to work, seems to work quite alright. Of course, by coffee I meant black coffee, no sugar, no milk. Ok, maybe occasionally with sugar. But it's not bad. Haha!

Anyways, ok ok... I think now my head is clearer. Had a nap just now... 1 and a half hours... after dinner some more. Last night I had my dinner at 2am. Haha! Cooked pumpkin! And butter potato with chopped hamburger. Ya... cooked enough for 3 meals, so that leaves me with 1 meal. That'd be for tmr lunch... or dinner. Did I mention that this butter potato dish was imagined while I was shopping in Woolworths Ind'roo? Ya... was thinking of what to cook for dinner then I saw pork stir-fry going at $4.50 for 600+ grams, so I thought of what I can cook with pork... and this recipe magically popped into my head! And it turned out quite well, if I do say so myself. Haha!

Oh oh, ya, Ind'roo that day. I cycled there after catching some insects around UQ Lake. Bought so many groceries la... haha! In the end I cycled all the way back home with just 1 hand controlling the bike. There was this point where an upslope was looming, and I was holding the bags on my right hand, then I needed to lower the right-hand gears. So I cleverly used my left hand to reach over to the right gears (yes, I can ride without hands)... and twisted the gears, at the same time pulling the handlebars! Haha! The bike went outta control and I fell in the middle of the road! Haha! Luckily there weren't any cars. And it's quite amazing how I fell... I actually jumped off the bike u know? With all the stupid groceries still in my hand! And I managed to still be standing up on the road, groceries in one hand, unscathed. So cool la! Then i quickly dragged my bike to the curb for examination. Wah, the handlebars in line with the wheel can! Haha! U know how they're supposed to be perpendicular? Yeah, it's now parallel! Small problem. Twisted it back. Next problem, the chain came off... wah lau. Hate that... coz it always dirties my fingers. But that's also a small problem. So there, I righted my bike, got my stuff & headed home again, riding with 1 hand. I feel like I'm typing a story... But yeah, I said a prayer on the way home, and all was well to my door. Amen.

Hmm... what other interesting stuff? *thinks* Oh! I found out where I can dig for termites! Haha! Isoptera! Yeah... 1 more Order down!

Oh I know I know! Today's Arthropods prac! Yeah, we looked at fleas & lice, and we had to identify 10 ticks lor! Wah, that one is really hard. But after awhile, u know what you're looking for, things get easier. Spent like 2h for the prac... I'd say about 1 & a half hours is spent on the tick. Haha! Yeah... I wish I own a microscope now. Haha! I wonder how much 1 costs... probably like a few thousands. But I really feel like owning 1. It's so cool to observe these critters at home...

Ok ok... everytime my entries so long... I think I should compile these entries into a book. Bleah...

Everyday he gets too preoccupied with work. He neglects her, he knows. But she awaits his call faithfully day by day, only to be disappointed yet again. Sorry darling, sorry for all this. Believe in me, and we'll make this work. I love you.

"I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be.
And that you'll make a better me,
Everyday I love you.

I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do.
You know that I learn somethng new,
Everyday I love you.

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad;
It's a smile when I get mad.
All the little things I am,
Everyday I love you.

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best.
I know that I am truly blessed,
Everyday I love you.
And I'll give to you my best,
Everyday I love you."

-Boyzone: Everyday I Love You

Love me if you dare... 14:53
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Monday, May 08, 2006

Short entry... I hope. Haha! I still dunno how to title my entries...

Hiya!

I just realised, I still dunno how to title my blog entries... That's one reason why you don't see my titles appearing all these while. Haha! I took away the code for the title.

K, anyhoo, I'll try to make this entry a short one. =)

Last night, at about 1+am, I was feeling hungry. K, maybe not hungry, but mouth itchy la, wanna eat something. So I decided to cook me some spicy instant bee hoon... Then wanted to add extra sambal coz I know it wasn't all that spicy la... Then the stupid sambal all at the bottom of the jar, so I hit the glass jar so that the chilli can reach the edge. But before that happened, wah seh, the chilli jumped out at me can! Haha! Guess where it attacked? My right eye!!! MY RIGHT EYE OK!!! Wah seh... at first I was like, ok, fine, I'll just have to wash it out. Then a few milliseconds later, I realised that it's not just any liquid or what... it's sambal chilli! And just at that moment, my eye started to sting... REALLY BADLY! Wah seh... I tell u... the pain... *wince* Excruciating could suffice but I'd say I felt like rolling on the floor & screaming la! But that would be too dramatic in peaceful Australia... So I gritted my teeth & washed my eye under running tap water, like all chemical-containing products advised. The pain spreaded to my left eye whilst I was washing. Dunno why. Of course, it's not as painful as my right la... At that time, I was thinking if I would go blind because of that... then the thought was so funny la! "How did u go blind?" "Oh, one time, I was cooking sambal instant beehoon at midnight then the sambal got into my eye." Hahaha!

K, anyways, the pain slowly subsided, and my eye was red & swollen. Tearing abit too but it stopped promptly. Yeah. So I finished my stupid bee hoon, then washed the pottery then I went to sleep liao. That's the end of my dramatic night. Haha!

Today, went Shux's house to sleep in the living room. Dunno why so tired sia... Went after lecture at 11am... then sleep until 1pm. Woke up, looked at her Econs, looks easy. Haha! But everything in textbooks look easy... wait till the exams come. Haha! So anyhoo, started to do my lab reports... do do do until 4+, then we started to head to sch. Meeting Mai & Ying at 5pm at the Physio Refec... Then we went Hawken Library and went through the pracs slowly... do until 7pm. That's when we could do no more... Walked to Hawken with Mai, treated her to Fish & Chips... It's quite nice y'know?

Then after that, I went back to the labs to look for Shux to go back together. Card access building... all glass doors were locked. Heh! Being the thief that I am, I wasn't convinced security was that tight. So I walked upstairs via another part of the building. Browsed around... the LTs weren't even locked can! But the entrance to within the building was locked la... so that's not too bad. Walked around to another side. Ha! Entrance to office! Unlocked! I walked in feeling somewhat yaya. And kept thinking to myself... this place is stupid. There aren't even security cameras on this floor la! Haha! So anyways, I took the lift down to where I couldn't access previously, and went to look for Shux. She was still doing her programming so I took out my reports to do lor...

And for some reason, she seemed to want me outta there... Were u, Shux? I dunno. Am I pestering u too much? Like, always hang around u? Or has all the teasing breached your threshold? If it's any of the above, I'm sorry. I'll try to keep my distance. If not, please do tell me why. You're my closest friend here. No, I wouldn't say best friend... I've never had a best friend. But I've got some really close friends. And maybe you're the closest to a best friend I've ever had... so that's why I might've breached your personal space all too often? Once again, sorry.

She's ever-so-understanding. He wonders why. But he's glad she loves him so deeply, and he definitely loves her as deep as well. Baby don't worry about a thing, coz every little thing's gonna be alright... *hugs*

"Perhaps love is like a resting place,
a shelter from the storm.
It exists to give you comfort,
it's there to keep you warm.
And in those times of trouble
when you are most alone,
The memory of love will bring you home.

Perhaps love is like a window,
perhaps an open door.
It invites you to come closer,
it wants to show you more.
And even if you lose yourself
and don't know what to do,
The memory of love will see you through.

Love to some is like a cloud,
to some as strong as steel.
For some a way of living,
for some a way to feel.
And some say love is holding on,
and some say letting go.
And some say love is everything,
and some say they don't know.

Perhaps love is like the ocean,
full of conflict, full of pain.
Like a fire when it's cold outside,
thunder when it rains.
If I should live forever,
and all my dreams come true,
My memories of love will be of you"

-John Denver: Perhaps Love

Love me if you dare... 22:50
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Sunday, May 07, 2006

After so long...

Heya!

Wow, I didn't blog for a week liao! Haha! Actually wanted to blog yesterday but Sue was using my laptop to blog too... so I was logged out. And when I wanted to blog again, I had to input my username & password. And I forgot what my username was. Haha! So I sat staring quite long at the screen thinking of my usernames. Tried a few with some combinations of passwords... then I gave up. Haha! I clicked on "Forgot your Username too?" so that they'll email me, but I never got any emails from Blogger. In the end, I remembered I saved my Dashboard on my Favourites... and there it was: my username. Haha! How dumb. So I only had to try my passwords... and it wasn't long before I got it right.

Wah, write how I forgot username also so long. Stupid...

Anyways, yeah, why I didn't blog for a week... It's been a really busy week... Sch started again, assignments due-ing (if there's such a word), still in holiday mood also... hai. Haha! So xian go back sch. But oh wells, life goes on... *shrugs*

Yeah, I had this Insect Design assignment, wah, due on Friday can! Haha! And I only realised it on Wednesday! So yeah, had to rush like mad... think of all the parts, the habitat, ecology, morphology (anatomy, if that's a simpler word), biology etc etc... not simple sia! Haha! But I did it in the end... after sleeping really late on Wednesday & Thursday nights. What time? Wed was like 5am, then Thu was like 4.30am. And both days I woke up at 8am. But at least I managed to finish it in time... Otherwise it's 5% of that assignment per day... and the weekend is considered Sat & Sun so 2 days... so it's 10% of 15% which makes it a total of 1.5% less of my total marks for this module. Confusing? Yeah... I also think so.

Anyways, Friday had CF... brought Daphne along. Then Mei was saying like I've been a loyal supporter for bringing new people all the time. Haha! Don't have lor! It's only Shux, Barry & Daph! Anyways, I was thinking of asking DG come also. Haha! See how la. Yeh, CF. It'll be Daniel's birthday on Sunday (today) so they celebrated for him on Friday la... Debbie & Tiffany got him a jaffa chocolate (I think) birthday cake! It was nice! But abit too crumbly... Nice nonetheless! Haha! Yeah... Then after that, Louis send ppl home unil 11pm... then he sent Daph back while I stayed back to study & wait for Shux. Anyways, I'm on my bike so it's ok, can stay as late as I like.

Study study read read... wah, so fast it was like 1am already lor! Ya, just reading my notes only. Anyways, walked Shux home, then she couldn't find her thumbdrive & watch, so I rode back to the lab to look for it. The breeze was so nice can! Haha! Yes, it was cold... but I so enjoyed it! Anyhoo, I couldn't find the stuff, so I called her. Then she sounded so sad... and I can understand coz it's like her life lor, the thumbdrive. All her work inside lor. Then she suddenly started laughing, and I guessed she found it already. Haha! Yes she did! In her jacket pocket! Ah wells... I cycled back to her place to return her keys & card, and she like kept apologizing la... Xiao jie, no need la. It's ok. I enjoyed the bike ride anyways... It was cold & I had to pedal hard, so I sweated... so it was alright... really. Haha!

So anyhow, I got home & bathed & cooked 2 packets of supposedly spicy instant bee hoon to warm myself up for the cold night. After eating & everything, haha! 4.30am liao... stew pig. How to play basketball? Barry kept asking me to go lor. But I told him see how first la. In the end also didn't. Sorry Barry...

Saturday! Buddha's birthday! Haha! So funny... I dunno why, it just came out as funny. But anyhow, they had this festival thingy on South Bank... got fireworks lor! Haha! We went down to see the display... but was too distracted by all the food stalls & other stalls... Suddenly there was an explosion in the sky, and we looked up to see the colorful splatters in the sky. Whoa! Suddenly u see alot of ppl running to the riverside... and that includes us! Haha! So because I wasn't prepared for the fireworks (coz I didn't know it was 9pm already), I couldn't get myself a nice location. So whatever la, just shoot lor. So now my 100 over shots all no background one... only fireworks against a dark black sky. Haha! Leong was prepared though... He got himself a nice spot & he's got a shutter release... *sigh* The importance of being prepared. Haha! Oh wells, there's always next year...

Today... wah lau... stupid lor. My handphone got pushed under my pillow, then in the end didn't hear my alarm, cannot wake up, didn't go church. Shit know! SO xian lor... But anyhoo, I just cycled to sch to do my prac reports... They're due Friday... haha! Tmr meeting Mai & Ginnie & Ying to discuss some of it. Stayed in lab the whole day, until just now 8+, the security ppl came around checking the access cards & all, and me not being from ITEE, got kicked outta the building. Building know! Not just lab... building! How lame... But whatever la... dun come dun come lor. But Shuxian was so nice, even though she's been in another lab all along, she finished up her work to come accompany me outside. Haha! Well, not exactly for me... Jasca & her were going home soon anyways... so I guess my being kicked out was just a catalyst? Haha! Anyways, Max cooked spaghetti today! Haha! So cool! But he used my diced beef (which I intended for another dish) to make the sauce. *grrr* But that's alright... I could always buy s'more. Haha! But they left so much for me that I split the portion into 2... so I could have lunch tmr. Yeah! Haha!

Ok ok... I type so much again... unhealthy blogging habit. =P

"You're my everything,
The sun that shines above you makes the blue bird sing.
The stars that twinkle way up
in the sky, tell me I'm in love.

When I kiss your lips,
I feel the rolling thunder to my fingertips,
And all the while my head is in a spin...
Deep within I'm in love.

You're my everything
And nothing really matters
But the love you bring
You're my everything
To see you in the morning
with those big brown eyes.

You're my everything
Forever everyday
I need you close to me
You're my everything,
You'll never have to worry
Never fear for I am near.

Oh, my everything
I live upon the land
and see the sky above
I swim within her oceans
sweet and warm
There's no storm, my love.

When I hold you tight there's nothing
That can harm you in the lonely night
I'll come to you
And keep you safe and warm
It's so strong, my love."

-Santa Esmeralda: You're My Everything

All this time, she's been on his mind. Really. But things have really caught him up the past week. And time flies by so quickly... and work is piling up too... But in the middle of the nights, he would sometimes look up at the starry skies, looking for a shooting star to wish upon. And he would wish she was here with him, so he could hug her & keep her warm in the cold cold night.

"... And when I die I keep on living
You’ll always have my love seeing you through
I’ll be your angel up in heaven
Forever all my love will shine on you
Cause baby I love you...

... No one can take away what we’re feeling
Our love is strong, it goes on forever
No one will ever love you better
And when they moan I’ll still be true to you
The seed of love lives inside of you
I’ll be your angel up in heaven
And all my love will shine down on you
For eternity..."

-No Mercy: When I Die

Love me if you dare... 20:24
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