Monday, November 27, 2006
Your Smile...
I can't do anything if I don't know anything right? If I didn't know a cup of coffee was bitter, I'd just not add sugar. And then the drinker will spit it out immediately coz it's not to taste.
What am I talking about?! *bleah* Shit...
Rather know & be hurt than not know & be happy? Where got such thing one?
Y'know, I was kinda considering giving up blogging... not because of a particular reasons. Oh man... I'm not in the right mind. What am I talking about? AH-H-H-H!!!
*pause* *breathe*
Ok... *thinks*
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我不是木頭!!!
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It was 5 months ago. History. Not valid anymore. It's no excuse I know... Like I said, I must've been a fool to have done that... Man, I don't even know how... All I can say is, I'm sorry... and all I can try to do is what I've said I would try. I won't regret. But you'll regret if I don't try to do what I wanted to. It's not that hard y'know? It's been quite some time already, in fact. And your theory doesn't apply to me. My theory applies to me. Maybe it's the fact that I'm a guy? Guy, girl... too different. Seems like I'm not much different from the general guy after all... =(
Anyways, yeah. I'm proceeding with my theory. We shall see how things turn out alright?
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"Life turned so cold when you ignored me.
The world fell silent around me.
Time seemed to pause for me.
Your smile evaded me.
That's when I realised
I've grown accustomed to you.
All the while I'm looking at you,
I just want to hold you,
And to see your smile on you.
If I ever make you cry,
If I hurt you so much,
If I've been insensitive
Selfish and proud,
Please find it in you to forgive me,
Coz my darling, I can't imagine
My life without your smile.
I never meant to hurt you,
Tell me what can I do?
I never wanna leave you,
Tell me what should I say?
I never wanna let you go,
Coz your smile, it will not stay.
All I wanna do
Is the best I can for you.
All I wanna say
Is "I love you" everyday.
All I wanna see
Baby, always, is your smile.
I am such a wretch,
Undeserving of your love.
Yet, I want to be your support,
Your shoulder to cry on.
I want to be your confidante
When problems knock on your door.
I wanna be the man you run to
Whenever you're afraid.
I want to be your best friend
When you've done something great!
I want to be the one who sees your smile,
The one you fell in love with.
So help me to love you
The way you love me,
The way you believe I do,
Lest I never see your smile again."
-Me: Your Smile
Help me be the love of your life...
Love me
if you
dare...
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Saturday, November 25, 2006
Perhaps Love
Misunderstood, misinterpreted, misjudged...
Miss you...
"...Perhaps love is like the ocean,
Full of conflict, full of pain.
Like a fire when it's cold outside,
Thunder when it rains...
... Perhaps love is like the mountains,
Full of conflict, full of change..."
-John Denver: Perhaps Love
Don't run away from me my darling... I love you... my heart breaks again & again & again, just seeing you unhappy... because I know it's all my fault... and I can't do anything...
Love me
if you
dare...
14:25
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I'm the stupid fool...
Why won't u just tell me straight out? Why do u always make me guess? Can't you see how I feel? No, you can't... because I don't know how to show.
How could it ever be a yes? I guess I'm the stupid fool to have made such a mistake in the first place. But like you said, what's done cannot be undone. All I can hope for now is that you trust me again. But if u don't, or can't, or both, I can't blame you can I? It's just like Susan Lewis' "The Mill House". Things can never be the same again... between Bob & Fen, between Julia & Josh, between you & me... things can never be the same again...
*sigh*
Meanwhile, for those who have the same chest pains I have, here's something a very concerned person dug up for me... =)
"Precordial Catch Syndrome (PCS) is the most common cause of recurring chest pain. It is also sometimes known as "a stitch in the side" or "Texidor's twinge". It occurs most often in children and teenagers, but does persist into adulthood as well...
... This extremely sharp pain causes a person to not want to move or breathe. This is where the "catch" part of the name is derived. Any movement or breathing only seems to intensify the pain...
... While doctors aren't sure of the actual causes, they are sure that it poses no danger. They believe it to be a completely benign condition and is most certainly not cause for alarm...
... In the meantime, you can rest assured that your extremely painful, stabbing feeling is completely normal and only a "minor inconvenience". And remember, the key to getting rid of the pain quickly is to just work up the courage to take that deep breath, scream in pain, and be done with it."
For the full article, go to this website. Cheers!
And if someday u grow tired of me (don't say you will never coz you never know), just go. I don't deserve you... at all...
Love me
if you
dare...
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Thursday, November 23, 2006
Vivocity again!!!
Today, I went to Vivocity again. Haha!
The event was meeting up with Shuxian, Vivian & DG for dinner! But I reached there at about 4pm or so... Had a short walk on B2 where I missed out yesterday, but realised I hadn't missed out much.
Went to Starbucks again... ordered a Grande Gingerbread Latte Frapp... Wah, $7.40 can! Super duper ex la! Shit... It'll be a really long time till I spend on Starbucks or Coffee Bean or Gloria Jean's or the like again... Anyways, sat in the corner on the comfortable armchairs, took off my shoes & started to read. =) So nice! Managed to sip my Frapp for like an hour plus, before I couldn't take it & finished the rest in a long noisy slurp of the straw. *grin*
At 5 to 7, DG called me say he reach le... Then I told him where I was. Chatted for awhile before Shuxian called him and he went to find her I think. So I dived back into my novel... haha! So nice to see her after so long... think she put on abit of weight... (oops!) but not enough to lose her figure. Haha! In fact, the more I look at her, the more pretty she looks. Haha! Same for Vivian... xiao lor, say put on weight already. Still looks the same lor. Haha! Sexy leh! Hahaha! Still remember last time we go clubbing with Daphne & Suelynn & Max & Christabelle. Haha!
Anyways, we had dinner at 店小二 again... k, again for me. Had that 十寳燒鴨 thing again... and pomfret and mushrooms and beancurd! Haha! Wah, so nice! But wah... total cost for 4 of us amounted to $17.50 each lor = $69.90. Heart pain. Haha! No la... still can afford, but no more expensive meals for some time... or as much as I can resist. Haha!
Took a long slow ride on 166 home. Wanted to insist on sending Shuxian home but relented coz I thought it might spark off something undesirable again... So I waited at the stupid bus stop for like 20min can! Stupid 166... where got so long one! I hate it when transport takes a long time to come & is unpredictable. At least Australia's is accurate enough with the timetable...
*sigh* I want to read some more... It's nice to do nothing & relax in a cool place & just read. Maybe I shall go One Fullerton Starbuck's one day to read. Haha! *sigh*
Why're u uncertain? What's it all about? Please tell me, won't u?
"If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show
The you I've come to know...
...If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today,
Beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving,
Spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away..."
-Bread: If
Words cannot say how much I love you. Yet I do not know what to do to show u I love you... except in death, but that would be meaningless proof... What can I do? What can I do? =(
Love me
if you
dare...
23:55
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THe past few days...
Hellos!
Haha! K, the last couple of days haven't been very eventful. But it was good! =)
Went to Vivo yesterday. Haha! Haiyoh... not very huge what... just leh-chey to walk the length of it... kinda like Marina Square, methinks. But I do agree the rooftop is quite fun la. Haha! Got those water thingy... but it rained yesterday. Haha! Maybe next time we should play in the water! Haha! So fun! Wheee!
Sat at Starbuck's the sofa... haha! Sit until sleep can! Haiyoh... but that's coz I was experiencing some pain in my body... had to rest. Anyhoo, basically spent the day walking up & down la...
At night, went to Shawn's place to stayover. Simin & Doris too... We had some cocktails mixed by Shawn, then went downstairs to S11 to eat coz Shawn was hungry. Haha! After that we went up to mix another cocktail for each of us. Haha! Then just stayed in Shawn's study to talk talk talk... talk until 2:30am like that then Shawn left the room coz 3 of them needed to work today. Me? I'm home now, watching TV, blogging, chatting. Haha!
Hmm... I had something to say but I forgot le. Nvm. I shall stop here. *slaps head*
Man, this has gotta be the shortest entry yet...
Let's play in the water next time!!! =)
Love me
if you
dare...
10:08
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Monday, November 20, 2006
Back home!
*sigh*
I feel tired. Haha! But I shall blog to the best of my ability... =)
My previous entries had some details omitted... so I shall backtrack & note 'em down here:
Tuesday:
Landed at 5am... waited for the bus to arrive at 6:13am... haha! Took bus all the way home & pulled approximately 50kg in total of luggage with me home. When I pressed the bell insistently, mum opened the door & looked at me for a second or two, then she said, "Yes?" Hahahaha!!! Hilarious can! Unpacked the minimum amount & rested at home the whole day...
Wednesday:
Shocked quite a few people. Haha! Esther, Simin, Jasmine, to start with... all kinda screamed. Haha! Zitong saw me in the library & started talking loudly like he was at hawker centre. Haha! Shawn just heard from Jiashan so he wasn't all that surprised to see me. Haha! Just, a lil' maybe? Then we had dinner at S11 Hougang Plaza... haha!
Thursday:
Hmm... stayed home most of the day... until evening. Went over to Simin's place to put down my stuff, then we went for a 13.76km run starting from her place, down Upp Serangoon Rd to Serangoon Ave 3, basically followed 58's route, then reach Bishan Park 1, continued on AMK Ave 1... all the way until the cross junction between Bishan Park 1 & 2, turned right up to Ave 3, run back towards AMK MRT, then straight all the way past Ave 10, to Serangoon North, then past Hougang Stadium, turned right at SRJC all the way up back to her house. Super big round. Haha!
Friday:
Didn't do much. Basically went to Bras Basah to buy plaster of Paris so I can make my own killing jar... *rubs hands together in anticipation* After that just went to Shawn's house to play with Ian & see Phi. Haha!
Saturday:
Hmm... went Shawn's house again in the afternoon, played with Ian with Jo & Jasmine. Then at 3:40pm like that, we went for 小組 in church lor. After that, went Bishan eat dinner, then go back to Shawn's house to wait for Shawn come back coz 3 of us are gonna run! In the end, managed to psycho Zhixiang to run also, but he's just gonna run from Shawn's house to his house, then go home le. Haha! That night, we ran 13.32km in total... I told Shawn it's shorter. Haha! It appears it's nearly the same... *phew* Jo was saying if it was less than 10km, it's a wasted training day. Haha! But hey! Look Jo! 400m less and u improved like 25min! Haha! Told u we ran faster... *grin* Oh ya, the route was Lor Ah Soo to Upp PL, down to Bartley Rd, turn right up Bartley until Braddell Rd, then until RI there, turn up towards J8, up till Bishan Park 1, then turn onto AMK Ave 1, up Boundary Rd, all the way till we hit Lor Ah Soo again. Another apparently big round! Yay!
Sunday:
As expected, surprised everyone else who haven't already seen me. But they all say like Bingjun lor! Wah lau... so annoying. K, not annoying... just, abit irritated la. *sigh* Can't we both have the same kind of taste and pattern? He's just got a year ahead of me to do things that I would have done even if he didn't lor. I'm not following him can! And no, I'm not gonna stop doing things I like just to prove I'm not following him. If everyone still wants to think I'm following him with respect to style & fashion (or the lack thereof, which is apparently how many many ppl feel), go ahead, I don't care. I'm me, and I won't stop being me just because other's don't think so. *bleah* U all just don't know me that well, it seems.
Went to Marina Square... Didn't tag along with the youngsters (yes, I'm old already). Gin Gin gave Mike, Doris & myself a treat at 店小二... haha! Some duck dish, some mixed vege thingy, this fried bean curd thing, and char siew! Haha! 謝謝真真老師!
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Today, had lunch with Wendy at Pastamania at Cineleisure. Dinner with Shi Ting & Wendy at Far East Plaza at Sakura. Haha! Shi Ting bought a new phone! Wah seh... K610m or something like that. Haha! I also want a new phone... =( Anyways, we just walked around abit till the shops all close... haha!
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I'm not the bestest guy there is... but I have to stand up in my own defence. I do try to be nice, I try my best to please... I do things for others unconditionally, I don't expect returns, I don't wish for retribution, I try to love everyone, I try to include everyone, I try to be tactful, I try to be as patient & concerned as I can, I listen more than I talk... Yet, it seems I exude an aura of nonchalance & insensitivity? Perhaps I'm just not as understood as I'd like to be. No wait, maybe I don't wanna be understood by just anyone.... just those close to me. So it's ok if ppl say stuff about me that are not true.
But it hurts if someone close to me judges me incorrectly. It hurts if someone close to me isn't telling me everything I need to know. It hurts if what I don't know causes me to not do anything when I ought to have done something should I have known about it. And it hurts even more when it's in the past, where I have no power to change the course of things, nor the effects things might have on people around me.
I'm not Mr Perfect... People make mistakes. If I've made a mistake that should not have been forgiven, yet has been, would I not have been more thankful? In the same light is Jesus' death for us. We are but the dust of the earth, yet he died for us... the fools who aren't thankful for their sins cleansed. I'm not Mr Perfect but I'm no fool. I do not need reminders that I should be thankful. You wouldn't understand the things I've been through unless you were me. You're not. Don't put me down further... I'm compressable but every spring breaks at some point. And then it just doesn't spring as well anymore... =( *ouch*
我真的真的好愛妳。如果我有讓妳懷疑過我的愛，真對不起。妳肯原諒我過去愚蠢的錯嗎？如果妳原諒不了，我也明白，我也理解。雖然很不願意，我會退出，我會從妳生命中消失。妳只需要狠狠地叫我離開。記得要狠。*sobs*
Love me
if you
dare...
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Long overdue
Ok... This post is long overdue. Haha!
Friday:
ENTM3002... *shakes head* I really dunno how I fared. Such a weird paper can. It's super open-ended. K, not super... but it IS very open-ended. I wouldn't say I'd definitely fail... but I wouldn't say I'd do well either. I did write at least 1 A4 page per question though. 4 questions, pages. I didn't know I could crap so much. Hahaha! Oh wells, the feeling after the paper was emptiness... like, nothing already lor. So what did I do? I cooked dinner for 2h! And these were what I whipped up...
Sambal beef strips with chinken hearts and kangkong on the left, and sambal kangkong on the right.
The chinken heart thing was nice! But then the eventual fate of it is to be dumped. So sad. And the sambal kangkong also... coz the next few days always go out mah... no chance to eat... Oh wells... *shrugs*
Saturday:
Hmm... what did I do on Saturday? *thinks* Oh ya! I went Indroo to meet Tiffany Lim & Patrick & Fenyi! Haha! Shopping! Actually, we didn't do much shopping also la. I got there earlier so I recce-ed the place to see what I wanna buy... then met Fenyi @ 2:30pm outside K-Mart, and shortly after that Tiff & Pat came. We headed to Food Court to eat. Haha! Eat & talk, eat & talk, wah seh, ended up, when we left the Food Court, it was like 4pm already lor. We went into K-Mart to walk around for a half-hour, then down to Woolies for another half-hour. And 5pm, all the shops close le! Sucky Brisbane... haha! Oh oh! I bought t-shirts! Haha! There's one that's really cool! It shows Colonel Sanders (the KFC guy) on a poster with his eyes squared blacked out. Then there was a big chinken & a small chinken looking at the poster & the big chinken went "So this is the guy who killed your dad?" Hahaha! Power lor! I fell in love with it immediately can!
After that, went to Sue's place. Ordered pizza & watched I forgot what movie already. Haha! Yep, that's the day!
Sunday:
Churched, citied, lunched with Melisa at the Elizabeth Arcade Korean place... haha! Had the raw beef dish again... nice lor! Then after that, Mel shopped for some groceries then go home le. Me? I continued shopping will 4pm when all the shops closed. Haha! Bought lotsa Starburst at no discount... =( And some chocolates too... and some capsule thingy for GinGin. Hmm... Oh ya! Then I went to uni to find Eunice... and we went to Bulimba for dinner... but was distracted by $5 movies! Hahaha! Watched "Mrs Palfrey at the Claremont"... NICE SHOW! I cried lor... Oops... Dunno Eunice got see anot... so paiseh. Did u cry too? =)
I wanna watch Brief Encounter!!!
Monday:
Hmm... what did I do? Oh ya! Went to Calvin's place to do the souveniors for the farewell beach party on the 18th! Wah, so nice lor... I wish I was graduating... haha! Well, at least I've participated in a small way in this much coveted event. *sigh*
Went to Eunice's place for dinner with Judy & Melisa & Eunice. Haha! Finally finished my chilli soup... used it to cook fish and chinken. Haha! And the baby octopus also... yum! Judy rented Robocop 3... haha! But didn't finish it in the end... sorry!
Today:
Bought a very cool Absolut! It's got a limited edition plastic casing. It's called the Bling Bling Absolut. Haha! And... well, lazed at home... Oh! Borrowed som books from the library and had a haircut. Wah lau, cut thin cut thin until become cut short lor! My hair... my long ugly ha-a-air... *sobs sob*
Ok... I go eat dinner le. =P
“We were weeping so shamelessly there was nothing else to do but fall in love...”
-Mrs Palfrey, on Arthur and herself watching Brief Encounter
Awww... *melts totally*
Nothing else to do but fall in love... =)
Love me
if you
dare...
18:10
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Wednesday, November 08, 2006
2 down, 1 more to go!!!
Yay!!! PARA3002 down! ENTM3002, here I come!
Actually, I wished it were later. I'm so tired lor... everyday sleep few hours only. Hai... but still, here I am blogging and not resting. Hahaha!
Wah, PARA3002... damn xian can. 8 questions, 15m each... last 2 questions I dunno how to do, 25% gone le. Then the other questions, some dunno this dunno that, haiyoh... *shakes head* But I don't think I'll fail la... Prac exam was crap too... Granted, there were some easy ones... like no need to see specimen already can guess what... especially the Malaria one. Haha! It's kinda like rotation thingy, 3min per specimen. Some easy mah, so finish up first, then look at the next few questions le. The moment I saw the Malaria one, "intermittent fevers... Kenya..." I was like, ha! Plasmodium! So I write write write, but go to the microscope, huh? Cannot see anything but Red blood cells lor. Haha! But I don't care. And since that was done before I reach the station, I got time to look at the next one. Same thing, "... from scalp of young boy..." What else man? Pediculus capitis, or head louse! Haha! So I had some time to ponder over some specimens that I totally have no idea... haha! Left blank can! Found out that quite a few ppl also left blanks. Haha! Maybe PARA3002 will moderate... *wishes*
Judy was studying in SS&H, but I sat there awhile, then I decided not to stay with her... I actually felt slightly dizzy can! Hahaha! So cool! So there I was, sleeveless, cycling, 1 hand holding a pizza box (my lunch), pedalling home in the slight drizzle that wetted my seat that wetted my pants. So fun! Single-handed cycling on the road, and sometimes freehand! Wheeee!
Came home & put together this new template! Hahaha! Nice nice? Yes! Nice!!!
Anyways, I saw my other Spidey drawing on the table & decided to post it up also. This one was drawn yesterday when I was at Law Library studying for PARA... haha! It shows him escaping a bomb attack... =)
Suelynn say my Tired Spidey nice! Haha! Yay!!! And Esther said it looked like a computer printout! I dunno if that's a compliment. Haha! No matter what, I take it as a compliment. Haha! Yay!!! Maybe I should keep all these drawings into an "Exam-times Doodle Folder" ya? Haha! I'm so lame... wah lau.
Anyways, I'm thinking of studying tonight... hmm... dunno if I should. Or maybe tmr then start to study... no, not start, continue. Haha! Don't scare u all la, huh? =) Yeah... but this paper, ENTM3002, Applied Insect Ecology... hai... so much theory one lor... and all very very cheemcology one! Wah piang eh. Imagine this: I need to read the words out loud to know what I'm reading lor. And it's just knowing, it's not even understanding can! I dunno how I'm gonna survive this paper. Hopefully my assignments throughout the semester is enough to pass me. *crosses fingers & prays really hard*
Ok la... enough of blogging today. Eyes tired, fingers tired... but nice blogskin I reckon! Yep! *stands back & frames computer screen with index fingers & thumbs* Wonderful! *grin*
我愛我的小傻瓜！她真的是太可愛了！哈哈！
Love me
if you
dare...
20:50
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Monday, November 06, 2006
Soft Spot? Danger... danger...
Soft spots are dangerous. At least, for me.
Why do people have soft spots for other people? I don't mean when you've known the other person for a really long time or what... It's almost as if it was immediately after u know that person. K, immediately sounds exaggerated. Maybe... hmm... after a few chats?
For example, I suppose my very first soft spot was for Shi Ting... and it developed into a crush that lasted 2years plus? We never got together... which, now that I look back, was good. She's got herself a very successful husband-to-be, and I'm happy for her! =D Yes, really!
Another soft spot was... hmm... Xuefen, Peiqi & Yibin? Haha! Poly-mates. They were 3 really fun girls to hang out with! O, how I miss my poly days with the 3 of them, and of course, the rest of 3F05, Biotech, LSCT!!! Wah... those were the days man. But anyways, that soft spot concentrated on Xuefen, and eventually developed into a liking too. Liked her for nearly 2years like that also.
And then there was Shuxian. Haha! Soft spot... very soft spot. Haiyoh... full of trouble, this soft spot brought me. Maybe it was too soft that I sunk too deep... anyways, I got out of that with much struggle & support. She's still an ultra-close friend & I thank GOD for that...
The above aren't the only people I have soft spots for, mind you... haha!
Adi Unaisi... yes, I admit I have a soft spot for you too. But after so many incidents, I thought I was careful with you. In fact, I do think I'm careful. I like you... like hanging out & chatting & stuff... y'know? But I hope I'm not leading you on... coz Jud & Mel seems to think I carry a torch for you. K, I don't really know what Jud thinks.. maybe she's just kidding & playing along. But Mel definitely seems to believe I do. And just in case you do too, I'm not. Hey, like I told Mel, you're a quality girl... a real REAL quality girl. I'm sure you're not short of suitors. =) Remember how surprised I was when you said u never had a boyfriend before? Haha! Ya lor... But me? Nah... I'm too crazy... or as Jud puts it, too eccentric. Haha! You'd have to be at least half as crazy... hahaha! My dear Unaisi... I just hope we'd be really close friends. Even when u return to Singapore & start working & stuff... come out ok? We could go for a meal or just stroll along somewheres... =) *nods*
Soft spots...
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Today's ENTM3003 Exam was easy! Hahaha! But if you'd check back to last semester's ENTM2011, I also said the paper was easy. Same thing... it was easy but I couldn't do some of them questions. So it's my own fault. I'm looking at say, a 5, for ENTM3003? *crosses fingers*
After my paper, I called Melisa & joined her & Judy at SS&H to study. But I didn't really concentrate much. Ended up doodling again. Haha! Spidey is just too fascinating to draw! At 6+, 3 of us headed to Hawken for dinner. Say Charmaine again! Hahaha! This semester saw her twice le. I wonder why nobody else ever bumps into her... even last sem also. Anyways, we got our dinner & some snacks from Coles, then headed to Judy's place le. Had dinner, chit chatted, Eunice baked cookies!!! Wheee! Fumbled with Eunice's MSN for abit... Oh, I tried my own chilli soup that I made last week! Well, it's more like a paste la. Did I mention before? If I did, I'm sorry. The ingredients were fresh chillis, dried chillis, habaneros, garlic, ginger, onions, Roma tomatoes and canned tomato puree, drizzled with black pepper. Eunice tried some last week... and she said, I quote,
"Chilli soup!!! Hot... hot... *wags tongue*"
Haha! So today I decided to try... and let Melisa & Judy try too! Heated up a bowl, then I took a teaspoonful... wah, can feel the blood rushing to my head lor... and pretty soon after that, beads of sweat formed on my forehead le. Hahaha! Shiok ah! And then I decided to try, in the name of science, dousing the spiciness with milk, as our dear Eunice claims to work. I took a large scoop with my teaspoon & put it in my big mouth, and slowly chewed the onion chunks in there. Hahaha! Wah, before long, that feeling came again... super hot la! Took a sip of Coles Lite Milk... hmm... seems to be working... but soon after the milk went down my throat, my tongue started to wag again. Feel like a dog. Hahaha! So, no Eunice, milk doesn't soothe my tongue of spice. Haha!
Ok la, my entry today ends here. I should continue studying for PARA3002 on Wednesday. Left tonight & tmr only. Die die... Pray for me!!!
Need you even guess who my softest spot is for? *grin* You know, I know... that's enough. *hugs*
Love me
if you
dare...
20:54
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Sunday, November 05, 2006
Heartache...
"当你决定你要离开我，
我没有说什么；就当赐你自由。
有好几次我都想挽留，
哭求也没有用，就当作是寂寞。
只有我能明白∶
她的温柔 对你是种解脱。
只想要告诉我 谁是你的最爱。
其实你很爱她，对我的惩罚。
说你没有想她，是可怜我吧？
我也没有借口，只能放手，
不敢奢求你说爱我。
其实你很爱她，她很温柔吗？
其实你很想她，就说出口吧。
我也不想多说，捂住耳朵，
不想再次听到你说∶你很爱她。
你很爱她。"
-FIR: 你很愛她
我真的沒有了…真的真的。
"It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside.
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there.
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen?
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care.
I thought you were my fairytale,
A dream when I'm not sleeping;
A wish upon a star
That's coming true.
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth,
When there was me and you.
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing.
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words,
Now my heart is empty.
I'm only left with used-to-be's;
Once upon a song.
Now I know you're not a fairytale,
And dreams were meant for sleeping.
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true.
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth,
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you.
I can't believe that
I could be so blind,
It's like you were floating
While I was falling...
And I didn't mind...
Cause I liked the view,
Thought you felt it too.
When there was me and you."
-Vanessa Anne Hudgens: When There Was Me And You
Streams flowed down my face when I heard your voice again...
"Oh, my love, my darling,
I've hungered for your touch
a long, lonely time...
Time goes by so slowly
and time can do so much.
Are you still mine?
I need your love,
I need your love,
God speed your love to me.
Lonely rivers flow
to the sea, to the sea.
To the open arms of the sea.
Lonely rivers sigh,
'Wait for me, wait for me'
'I'll be comin' home, wait for me!'"
-Gareth Gates: Unchained Melody
我快回來了。等我，親愛的，等我回來。I've hungered for your touch indeed... a long lonely time. You don't know how my heart aches...
Love me
if you
dare...
15:26
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
ARGH!!! Indians!
I HATE INDIANS!!!
Ok, granted, not all indians are jerks & (I cringe to use this word but my vocab is limited) bitches. I've got nice indian friends (e.g. Vidhya!!! =D), but indian strangers are just too crap. I'm sorry if this sounds racist but I'm just venting my anger.
For example, when cycling on a sidewalk, I ring my bell from about 30m away, all the way till I'm about to touch their butts, yet, they don't even turn around or budge or step aside. Is my bell not Tamil? Do bell rings even have a language?! Grrrr...
K, there're many more unpleasant experiences but I shall only mention this specific one so I don't waste too much time:
My plan, TurboCharge, goes like this. I buy $30 of credits and I receive $120 value when I top up my pre-paid mobile. Last semester, there was an offer for students to sign up a TurboCharge plan before April or March, and we get 400 free SMS to any network. So I did! And I've been having 400 free SMS forever! Until now. The charges became erratic! I realised SMSing to other networks or to contract mobiles will cost me 25c. But SMSing Melisa, who's also on TurboCharge, was free 2 nights ago! I know because I checked my balance after a few experimental SMSes... But that's ok, coz just recently, the $120 got split into $30 real credits & $90 bonus credits. So I thought maybe I just ran out of Bonus Credits. Ok lor. But just now, I finished up my remaining credits when I was SMSing Melisa again! It's supposed to be free!
Puzzled, I called the Optus Customer Service. This silly indian lady whose name I couldn't catch (who's name could u catch on the customer service?) said I never had any offer on my account. No free time, no free SMS. I was like, I've had it for the past more than half year, hello, what do u mean I never had any offer? Then she was like, "I don't have any records of any offers you have," in an irritating annoying accent. Then ok, nvm. Pissed already. I asked more about roaming & credits expiry. According to her, credit expiry means my credits, no matter how much I'm left with, will go down to $0 after the 30-day expiry of TurboCharge. I told her that I had the experience of not topping up prior to expiry, but my credits became what's left of $120 divided by 4 (some calculation that you will understand if u think abit), not $0, but she said, again, in that accent & condescending tone, "No no no, your credits will become zero." Feel like slapping her can!
Ok... I've reached the end of my textual descriptive ability. Bottomline is that I'm REALLY pissed with the customer service of Optus. This isn't the first time. I'm gonna boycott Optus.
EVERYBODY! DON'T GO ON OPTUS!!! NOT PREPAID, NOT CONTRACT, NOT FIXED LINE, NOT EVEN INTERNET!
K, this is like, so childish can. -.-
"Unleash the child within..."
Love me
if you
dare...
12:13
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Can't study!!!
Morning peeps!
*sigh* Woke up this morning not wanting to get up. Tossed & turned in bed for like 2h+, trying to get back to sleep, thinking about exams, heart pumping fast... Finally I gave up & started the day at 9:40am like that. Judy said it wasn't like me lor. Haha!
[10:15:44] jud~~~: doesnt sound like u kane
[10:16:01] Love me if you dare: Huh? Why why? Haha!
[10:16:13] jud~~~: u seem da relax kind
[10:16:33] Love me if you dare: Haha! I really give u that impression the past week hor? *grin*
[10:18:08] jud~~~: maybe
Hahaha! So I'm a slacker huh? =D
Anyways, checked my mail, Jody made something outta that little plastic guy in the Christmas cracker! So cool! Look! =)
And Gabriel asked me stuff about multi-tools... I looked around the Leatherman site and now, I feel like getting another one. My previous SuperTool went missing after I ORD... dunno is it I left in camp or something... shit. Anyways, my eyes fall upon the specs of the Charge XTi.
Add-on bits, needle-nose pliers, cutting hook , diamond-coated file, and 154CM blade (although I dunno what 154CM is... It's definitely not centimetres coz that'd be cm and extremely long) are just a few of the features this baby has. For full-on specs & design, let's see... Here!!!
Anyways, did some Tickle tests again... haha! So cool!
"Kane, YOUR song is Come and Get Your Love
That's right, hot stuff. It's no surprise your signature song is a party favorite that's just as flirty and fun as you are. Whether it's a regular old night on the town or the party of the year, you know how to amp up any event to make sure it's one no one would want to miss.
Outgoing and vivacious, you don't mind being the center of attention. In fact, you probably seek out the spotlight. And why shouldn't you? Everyone can't wait to see what you've got up your sleeve. Party on!"
Yep! Come and get your love!
"Hey (hey)...
What's the matter with your head? Yeah...
Hey (hey)...
What's the matter with your mind and your sign?
And-a ooh-ohh...
Hey (hey)...
Nothin's a matter with your head, baby, find it.
Come on and find it.
Hell, with it, baby,
'Cause you're fine and you're mine,
And you look so divine!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Hey (hey)...
What's the matter with your feel right?
Don't you feel right, baby?
Hey, oh, yeah,
Get it from the main line, alright
I said-a find it, find it, darling, love it,
If you like it, yeah-eh!
Hey (hey)...
It's your business.
If you want some,
Take some, get it together, baby
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love, come and get your love,
Come and get your love, now!
Come and get your love, come and get your love,
Come and get your love, now!
Come and get your love, come and get your love,
Come and get your love, now!
Come and get your love, come and get your love,
Come and get your love, now!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Come and get your love!
Hey (hey)...
What's the matter with your feel right?
Don't you feel right, baby?
Hey, oh, yeah, get it from the main vine, alright!
La,la,la,la,la,la, (come and get your love)
La,la,la,la,la,la, (come and get your love)
La,la,la,la,la,la, (come and get your love)
La,la,la,la,la,la, (come and get your love)
La,la.la,la,la,la,la,la,la (come and get your love)
La,la.la,la,la,la,la,la,la (come and get your love)
La,la.la,la,la,la, (come and get your love)
La,la.la,la,la,la,la,la,la (come and get your love)"
-Redbone: Come and Get Your Love
Such a nice song!
Here's another one:
"Kane, your body's telling you to Exercise More
Taking it easy is nice. No argument there. A mellow and easy-going person like you is probably well versed in the art of relaxation. Stressing less is important, but your body also needs to get the blood flowing on a regular basis.
We're not saying you need to start training for a marathon. There are some easy steps you can take to get in some exercise. Instead of taking the elevator, go for the stairs. Park your car farther away from the stores to get a walk in. So what if sweat messes up your hair? It's good for you. Just make sure you stay hydrated, eat right, and get plenty of antioxidants. Now get to it!"
And to think just Tuesday, was it? That we went to Singapura for dinner with Louis, and we were talking about cholesterol levels and exercise & saturated fats & stuff... haha! Judy was saying I should be the one going for a checkup... haha! Ok ok! If there's a free one, I'll go ok? =)
Oh shit! 10min past my stipulated time to study!
Life can be wonderful if love is all you need. I love... so come & get your love!
Love me
if you
dare...
09:43
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Friday, November 03, 2006
No discipline. Haha!
Hi guys! *waves*
Yes yes, I know I'm not supposed to blog for 2 weeks. But I just can't help it! I've been online everyday! Haha! Oops... But then again, nobody actually talks to me much la... so I suppose it's ok. B'sides, I get to arrange meeting-ups and stuff... good good. =)
Past week, starting from Tuesday, I've been going to school library to study everyday. K la, it's only Tue, Wed & Thu. But still... I think studying in the library is more productive than at home... for me at least. Because u can't make noise, and u can't throw yourself about like it's your own home... no comforts... and not much distraction. Been studying with Judy! Yay! And Melisa too but she went whale-watching on Wednesday! Haha!
Judy's been a great study-buddy (new term I learnt today from Eunice! Haha!) Yeah! She's very concentrated when she's studying... and well, like me, occasionally gets distracted & has to go do something else... like going online. Haha! But she's been good company... =) Thanks Jud!
And Melisa too! Haha! Well, she's more like doing assignments & researching, but the company was good nonetheless! But she's always online. Haha! And when I bring my laptop to sch too, I had to keep appearing offline otherwise she'd shoo me off. Thank you Mel, for coming to school to study with us! =D
Oh look look! I was bored yesterday whilst studying, so I started to doodle. I thought this was quite nice, so I took photos & blogged! Yay! I call this picture: After Work.
Let's see... Yesterday after studying, we went to Judy's place coz Melisa wanted to cook fried rice. Haha! So she took out the chinken thighs so late lor... and insisted on using it & thawing it. Haha! Judy & I were like, use luncheon meat la! But she don't want. Haha! In the end, we had our dinner at around... 9+? Calvin came over & had a bowl too! Haha! We made watermelon sago too! Haha! So fun! Coz Judy had some Gula Malacca from her previous housemate (Stella, I heard her name was) and she didn't know how to use. So I dissolved it in some water & added white sugar too, so that it'd become a syrup, then we bought coconut milk, cooked some sago, and bought a quarter of a watermelon. Hey, it's nice u know? Haha! And Calvin was cool! He tried just coconut milk with Gula Malacca, and he said that's just it. No need for watermelon or sago. Haha! And I said ya, it'd taste exactly like chendol! Haha! Then he tried everything but without Gula Malacca... and he said it sucks. Conclusion: Gula Malacca is the key ingredient! *grin*
Today I met Genie & Mai for lunch at Nandos... Damien tagged along coz he just got off work & was super bored. Haha! Haven't met them for so long... It's nice hanging out with them girls... I just wished it could be longer.
Oh, oh, morning Eunice was the one who drove me to the city! Thank you!
Anyways, I studied at Borders before lunch, then after that I studied at Brisbane Square. Haha! Then at 5:15pm, Eunice came from PA hospital (where she had an X-ray for TB! *shudders* and studied the rest of the day) to pick me up again! So nice right? Aww... *melts* Haha! Really appreciate it.
Well, we had SWOTVac (which apparently means "Studies WithOut Tutors Vacation) visitation whereby we went around to OCFers' houses to chit chat, catch up, and pray for them... It was nice. And I think it's really good that we pray for each other and stuff... really keeps the bond there. =) Yay!
K, anyways, tonight I should study. I dunno if I should take up your offer to be a study-buddy for the night... eh Eunice? Haha! Besides, u won't be staying up the whole night to study. See how la. Later if I SMS u then u reply then maybe I go over ok? *wink*
*whines* I'm fat le! Wah lau! My abdominal area become like a ball lor. Yucks. Now I know why people keep wanting to slim down. =(
Ok ok... study study.
Don't anyhow think! There's nothing to think about. If you're thinking what I think you're thinking, well, there's nothing... really. I love you... =( I really do...
Love me
if you
dare...
21:04
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Add-on bits, needle-nose pliers, cutting hook , diamond-coated file, and 154CM blade (although I dunno what 154CM is... It's definitely not centimetres coz that'd be cm and extremely long) are just a few of the features this baby has. For full-on specs & design, let's see... Here!!!
