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Saturday, February 03, 2007

Loneliness strikes...

I'm leaving soon...

On the 9th, to be exact. 11:50pm will be my flight... and then, goodbye Singapore. Singapore and all her cheap yummy food, the convenience of transport, the late night shopping everyday... and most of all, my friends. All my friends.

Today, I spent the whole day alone. Nobody's home... and my thoughts started to run. I don't wanna go back to Brisbane... yet, I know I have to. At the very least, to complete my degree. But the lonely times will eat me, gnaw at my spirit. At least I still have Judy & Melisa & the other OCFers there to "keep me company"? Haha! Yet, mine will be a busy semester & Judy would be working... I don't know about the rest. *sigh* I can only wait till I'm back there & school starts.

And when I graduate, then what? Do I stay there to work or come back? Either way, what can I work as? I'm not exactly keen on lab work... but pest busters?! There's AQIS too... but they might not want an international student since they'd have to go through all the hassle of applying for a work visa for me & stuff... Museum? Preserve insects? *sigh* The future looks bleak...

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But not for you. You have lots of doors open to you. The choice is yours... so study hard, and make your parents, yourself, and most importantly, GOD, proud of you! Show them what you can do! A2 doesn't mean anything ok?

And don't be upset & bothered about what people think of you. You are who you are. If some people don't like it, leave it to them to deal with it. You cannot please everyone. But you can be yourself and shine your fearfully & wonderfully made light to all around you!

"I don't wanna put on my make up
Just like every girl in a magazine.
That's not who I am when I wake up,
That's not who I wanna be.

There's so much more to me than
Meets the eye.
In this life,
I know one thing:

It doesn't really matter what you wear,
Let the people stare!
Coz we are who we are, who we are, who we are!
It doesn't really matter what car you drive,
It's good to be alive!
Yeah, we are who we are, who we are, who we are,
Who we are!

Tell me baby, do I look like the real thing?
Or would you change the color of my eyes?
Tell me why my television's filling me with lies?

There is beauty on the inside,
Yeah you're beautiful!
All right!

When we are who we are..."

-Hope Partlow: Who We Are

"You with the sad eyes,
Don't be discouraged.
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people.
You can lose sight of it all,
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small.

But I see your true colors
Shining through,
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you!
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors,
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow.

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing.
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear,
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there.

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through.
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you!
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors,
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow!"

-Cindy Lauper: True Colors

"I'd rather die tomorrow than to live a hundred years without knowing you."

-John Smith, Pocahontas

"I don't know what it is but she drives me crazy.
I don't know what she does but she drives me wild.
If only she could let me be the man I wanna be.
Well she can leave me helpless as a child.

I don't know how it is but she has the power.
She can make me laugh when I wanna cry,
She tells me that I'm in control but I know it's just a lie.

And I don't mind, oh!
Will she love you tomorrow like she loves you today?
She can keep your heart guessing but she's yours if she stays.
And that's what it feels like
To love a woman.
To love a woman.

When you're looking in her eyes you can see forever.
You're captured by the beauty of her soul.

You know you're never gonna find a woman like this again

So don't let go, oh!

Oh, she can make your day,
Oh, she can take it away!
And oh, whether it's wrong or right,
You know it in the end, you'd do it all again
To love a woman.
Just to love a woman.

Oh you know (yes I know, yes I know)
She loves you tomorrow like she loves you today (well she loves you)
She can keep your heart guessing but she's yours if she stays (she's yours if she stays)
And that's what it feels like (I'm gonna say it)
And that's what it feels like (what it feels like oh)
And that's what it feels like
To love a woman
To love a woman (mm hmm)
Yes to love a woman."

-Enrique Iglesias & Lionel Ritchie: To Love A Woman

And you know you're the woman that I love. Never mind what the people say. I am who I am, and so are you. And you are beautiful in my eyes, and nothing can change that. I love you.

Love me if you dare... 16:31
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