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Sunday, May 20, 2007

So many thoughts...

Hey heys!

It's been 4 days since my last post. Haha! It's been a nice 4 days. But I guess, like Mel, the so-called highlight would be Jun accepting Christ today! It left her speechless, it left me awed. I know Karen & Mel and GOD knows how many more have been praying for her all this while. And since I got to know her, so have I. And it's really just GREAT to see your prayers answered! I mean, k, I probably won't feel as elated as the 2 girls, but I'm really happy and excited for Jun right now. And today's service at Kenmore sang a song that really describes my awe!

"From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea,
Creation's revealing Your majesty.
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring,
Every creature unique in the song that it sings;
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable!
You placed the stars in the sky
And you know them by name,
You are amazing GOD!

All powerful, untamable!
Awestruck we fall to our knees
As we humble proclaim,
You are amazing GOD!

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go?
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow?
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light,
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night?
None can fathom...

You are amazing GOD!"

-Chris Tomlin: Indescribable

It tells me once again how insignificant we are. The sun, our source of life and energy, may well be just a figment of GOD's imagination!

"See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?"
Matthew 6:28-30

Yet, despite all of that, GOD cares about us enough to have us rescued from an eternity of death! Mel was saying how Jun was just saying on Friday what a scientific-minded person she is, and I was saying that for myself, I feel that GOD is evidently present when I study science. And today, Karen SMSed that to Mel! I really can't describe my awe and reassurance that my prayers will be answered. And Mel also mentioned that all these will be due in GOD's time, not ours... And this morning's service at Ann St mentioned that GOD sometimes hide? But HE is NOT indifferent to us. HE is faithful and will never leave us.

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.

For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior..."
Isaiah 43:1-3

Yup! I'd say today was a good day... =)

"Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you¹re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through."

-Joey McIntyre: Stay the Same
I still think of you... and I still wish things could've turned out better. But as they are, I just wanna wish you well, and I will always pray that our friendship could be as deep as our relationship was. As for these hidden paragraphs, I won't make them specially for you anymore k? *hugs* I love you...

Love me if you dare... 21:33
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Pot of boiling oil...

Haha! I'm a pot of boiling oil?

I'd much prefer to be a flame. U know the saying, if you play with fire, you'll get burned by fire? Yeah... I'm that kinda person... To me, there's no fun without danger. And I experience life through the fun things!

I was just about to launch into a long story-telling session to illustrate how, but I think I shall hold my horses for now. *grin*

Anyways, yeah, I love playing with fire. People who know me since childhood should know that I do, literally... and will come ask me for advice on what kinda liquid will produce what kinda flame. Haha!

But I also love playing with fire, figuratively. I'm the kinda person who likes to test things to their limits... I like to swim in still waters, I like to tread where the trail fades, I like climbing the edges of drop-offs, I like to challenge the norm... So naturally, I'm attracted to people who love fire too, or things that are outta the ordinary... creatures that are seldom seen, plants that people wouldn't give a second look at, etcetera etcetera... you get the drift. =)

Mmm... oka-a-ay... I lost my point. *thinks hard*

I feel like Vic... haha! Oops! =D

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Anyways, I went Dreamworld with Vic, Mel, Melvyn and Roo yesterday. Haha! We spent the whole day there la! Like, from when they just open until they close. Haha! We took enough rides to reduce the cost to $4/ride!!! Yay! Hahaha! But I STILL felt it was abit expensive... but oh wells.

I shall post photos when I got those from Mel & Roo... coz 3 cameras, then some more mine was like spoil spoil one... I'd say about half of the photos were taken using their cameras. =)

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Hmm... do I got anything else to say? Don't think so...

Pour me onto yourself if you wanna risk getting cooked, but I may not be what I seem to be...

"The moth don't care when he sees the flame.
He might get burned, but he's in the game.
And once he's in he can't go back,
And beat his wings till he burns them black.
No, the moth don't care when he sees the flame.
No, the moth don't care when he sees the flame.

The moth don't care if the flame is real,
'coz flame and moth got a sweetheart deal,
And nothing fuels a good flirtation
Like need and anger and desperation.
Now the moth don't care if the flame is real.
Now the moth don't care if the flame is real.

So come on, let's go! Ready or not,
'Coz there's a flame I know, hotter than hot,
And with a fuse that's so thoroughly shot away!

The moth don't care if the flame burns low,
Coz moth believes in an afterglow.
And flames are never doused completely,
All you really need is the love of heat.
Now, the moth don't care if the flame burns low.
Now, the moth don't care if the flame burns low."

-Aimee Mann: The Moth

Love me if you dare... 19:13
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Sunday, May 13, 2007

Lonely...

I think I'm someone who's easily distracted... *nods* Like, the whole time I was out with Felicia, Mel, Vic & Huiru, I was in a totally different state as now.

Rev Thong said today that loneliness is one of the many vulnerabilities to Satan's attacks. Coz if you're lonely, you have an unmet desire... an unmet desire is where Satan will use temptations to tempt you so that that unmet desire can be met. Know what am I talking about? No? Nvm... I know can already.

So yeah... am I lonely? I could be y'know? *thinks* Maybe that's why I like to hang out with Vic & Mel & Jun & Ren so much... coz they're good company... like, just very nice to hang out with them. I feel like I've known Mel & Vic for years la! And Felicia too, occasionally! She's just totally crazy!

Just last night, we found out that she's the same age as Evelyn, and they were both from St Nick's primary!!! Hahaha! So exciting! Now I'm just waiting for photographic identification coz both of 'em can't really remember who's who... =)

But am I meeting them too often? Like, I'm so involved with them that I hardly cooked at home for the past couple of weeks! I think I am, hey? I should cook more at home this week. Ok... *resolves to cook more at home*

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Went running yesterday! K, Vic & I went up to Mel's place to study. Haha! Joan was there too, so it's like, Jun, Jon, Ren, Mel, Vic and myself, each doing our own work, strewn all over the living room! So cool! But Vic & Mel are meeting Felicia & Melisa for tennis at 5:30pm, and I didn't wanna play, so I just went to run. Ran with Jun & Ren for awhile, like, they just ran to the bridge & then turned into uni then run back already. So I did that, then ran back to the bridge, crossed the bridge, got to Annerly. Wah, this cemetery, damn scary la! I ran into the entrance where there's this signboard showing the layout of the cemetery... There was another exit at the other end that would pop out at the river. So I was thinking whether I had enough faith to run through it alone. After thinking for a couple of minutes, I decided to go for it.

So off I ran, deeper into the spooky cemetery. No moon, no stars, so many clouds. It was REALLY dark man! I almost couldn't see where I was going la! Seriously! And the roads weren't exactly well-tarred. But I ran on anyways... all the graves around me... strange sudden rustlings... stupid thoughts forming in my head. Haha! But I gotta admit, it was really exhilarating! I would do it again, anytime man!

Anyways, after that went for dinner with Felicia & Vic, at Annerly! Haha! Where I ran past... Then after that we picked Mel & we went to 3 Monkeys for desserts & a game of English chess. I didn't know the pieces & moves were SO analogous to chinese chess la! Hahaha! But it was a fun evening... like, Mel & I against Vic & Feli... =) Fun fun fun! Then today Vic say feel like playing again... *mock Vic's laughter* Hahahaha! Oops!

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Some things have happened lately that's made me think of my life... Today, I prayed to GOD telling HIM that I want to give my life to HIM... and I would give up everything just to serve HIM, if HE wants to use me for HIS purpose, that is. And I prayed that I would know when it is HE is calling me... like, to be more sensitive to HIM. So how would I know when GOD is telling me something? I think I'm lacking too much in faith... So I prayed and asked GOD for a faith as big as a mustard... tree? Is that too much to ask? I remember somewhere in the Bible saying we need to be daring in asking... or did I remember wrongly?

Anyways, I prayed for that already... and I really want to live for GOD... I just don't know how. I've been an extreme person all my life, and I really wanna be extreme for GOD. But you know how GOD doesn't always let you be who you want to be? HE makes u become someone HE wants you to be!

But I'm fine with that. I just wanna live for GOD.

Which brings me to another thing...

"... those who marry will face many troubles in this life..."
1 Corinthians 7:28

"An unmarried man is concerned about the Lord's affairs—how he can please the Lord. But a married man is concerned about the affairs of this world—how he can please his wife—and his interests are divided."
1 Corinthians 7:32-34

So how? Is that GOD's will for me? But...

"... it is better to marry than to burn with passion."
1 Corinthians 7:9

Lately, I haven't been having any lustful thoughts at all! I think it's really cool! It's like a liberation from some bondage or something la! I guess doing QT in the mornings play a big part in that... like, GOD's words just stick to you for the rest of the day? Even Jo agrees there's a difference! I think everyone should do that.

I remember posting before that we should fit our schedule around GOD, instead of fitting GOD into our schedule. I guess that's one way we're actually prioritizing GOD over our lives? We're actually putting HIM first every morning...

Ok, I got side-tracked... I was saying about that marriage thing. So what is my calling? I really wanna know GOD's will in my life... like, can't HE just send me an email or something?

Imagine if HE did! Hahaha! So cool!!! But yeah, right now, I'll just be waiting for HIS voice.

Please pray for me... thanks.

I still love you lots... but recently, I've had a feeling of serving GOD only... wanting to dedicate my life fully to HIM. I'm at a loss what I should do... but I've been praying about it. Please pray with me my darling... I love you.

Love me if you dare... 21:32
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Down in the dumps.

Ever get the kind of feeling that you just wanna be left alone to wallow in self-pity and confusion and frustration and sadness...

... and... confusion? Yet, at the same time, you want someone to be there for you for GOD-knows-why? Because you know that you wanna be left alone, but you still wanna have someone to be your company...

What am I talking about... *pffft*

That sounds really selfish... and unreasonable... and crazy. But it sounds like something I would do for a friend who's feeling like that. I'm a selfish, unreasonable, crazy toot! And I need a selfish, unreasonable, crazy toot to stay beside me when I'm in one of those selfish, unreasonable, crazy moods. YET, I still wanna be left alone... ARGH!!!

Grrrr...

I want an iPod so I could go to the bridge and just sit there for a night and listen to sad (or in Mel's, Jun's, Ren's & Vic's words: emo-) music and anyhow think... maybe cry... maybe laugh... maybe die (and get killed again by someone).

Down in the dumps is where I wanna be... yeah.

Dirty, cold, wet, lonely...

"... I think he is really ready to go."

Am I? Look at me... Hardy-har-har...

"you're not the decent honest person everyone thinks you are. that's just the image you portray."

I have a pretty good idea who said that. I do not deny that, actually. Everyone's got 2 sides... I'm sorry if you've seen more of that side than this...

Confused...

I cannot understand! I cannot seem to communicate anymore! What's happened to me? What's happened to us? *sob* Shit shit shit shit... GOD save me!

Love me if you dare... 10:24
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Thursday, May 10, 2007

Missing you...

Time and distance definitely strains a relationship... especially one where constant physical contact and meeting up equates to assurance.

How do you assure someone that you love her? What can you do to let her know she's always on your mind? What can you say to let her know how much you love her?

And then, how do you know when a relationship sours? How can you tell when all that remains in the relationship is committment? Where is the love? Was it even there to start with? What's love? Is committment all that holds so many marriages together? Is love a neccessary clamp after marriage? Or is committment the permanent glue? What's the difference?

People always say, during courtship, the guy will be SO attentive, so caring, so... perfect? And then comes engagement and marriage, and the guys will just become nonchalant, ignorant, insensitive, a total bastard. Why is that? Why can't guys be just as they are as when they're trying to win a girl's heart? Hmm? Bloody guys.

Am I like that? Shit... I hope not. Please not let me be like the average guy...

"She's always on my mind,
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes,
She's everywhere I go,
She's all I know.

And though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday.
And even now she's gone,
I'm still holding on.

So tell me where do I start?
'Coz it's breakin' my heart.
Don't wanna let her go.

Maybe my love will come back someday,
Only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find a way,
But only heaven knows.
And all I can do is hope & pray,
'Coz heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her,
You've gotta set her free.
And if she returns in time,
I'll know she's mine.

'Coz heaven knows
Why I live in despair.
'Coz wide awake or dreamin',
I know she's never there.
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shakin' inside.
Why does it hurt me so?

Heaven knows... heaven knows."

-Rick Price: Heaven Knows

I miss you lots too. Really really... Maybe we're going through some bumps right now, but if we can pull through all of these, I'm sure we'll come out stronger. *nods* *hugs*

Love me if you dare... 17:45
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Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Camp and everything before that!

Been a long time since I last blogged... so many things happened. Not bad things la... just things that make you think? And happy things! And funny memorable things! Yay!

But let me be evil for a moment first...

Today, I was at Hawken. Just finished buying some soup stuff for dinner, then wanted to take 411 back to uni to wait for Jun & Mel. Wah, the stupid bus driver, I run until the bus stop, then waved at him to open the door leh! Know what his response was? He opened the door, stopped me from going on the bus, then said, "Go away! You can walk 100m to the uni." I was like, stunned la! Like, what?! Then he said it again, "You can walk 100m to the uni!" And I replied, weakly, "But it's on the way?" And he just ignored me & opened up the ramp for a wheel-chaired passenger to get off the bus. I just stood there like an idiot la! Then deciding that I didn't wanna get on that bus, I turned on my heels & walked off towards uni. Then he shouted after me, "Hey!" I ignored him. "Hey! Where're you goin'?" I twisted around & shouted, "I can walk 100m to the uni!" and stormed off.

Then I started thinking... was that Christian? What on earth would Jesus want me to do in a situation like that? Was I wrong to shout back a retaliation? Was I wrong to storm off? Was I wrong to keep my pride?

Turns out, the bus stopped at the stop before uni. Apparently his schedule wasn't due yet. Ok, if that was the case, just tell me nicely! I saw his sillhouette at the front of the bus, so I started crossing the road, not wanting a confrontation, nor to look at his face. I took down the license plate as I went by, intending to file a complaint. I wanted some action done... but how severe do I want it? And should I even file a complaint in the first place? What if he's been like that all along & this could be the straw that broke the camel's back? What if that guy lost his job because of me? Yes, I DO think he deserved it, but still, getting retrenched because of a stupid remark... *tiaow*

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Enough of that. I wanna talk about CAMP!!! Haha! It was so fun! Ok la, too short for my liking, but I still enjoyed it. But let me start with the week prior to camp first.

In one word, super busy. *counts* That's two. Haha! K, 2 words then. Why? Because Thursday we had our insect collections (group and individual) due, and I barely had enough for that. So I had to go out to hunt for more... And then this week's the big thing for OCF! Ok, for me serving in OCF. I was in charge of the refreshments, and this week is combined with GU. So taking reference to Eunice's & Su-Ann's preparations last year, I had a huge menu cooked up! But it was dramatically reduced to bread & sandwich ingredients... =( I wasn't too happy about that, coz they want something good but only had 50c per person for the budget. Crippled lor.

Then Vic & Mel came up with an ingenius idea! Pasta! Filling and cheap! Haha! So that was what I did... Cooked 1kg of pasta, 4 raw capsicums, 6 Roma tomatoes, 6 hard boiled eggs, 375g of flat mushrooms, and 1 packet of salad mix vege. I had tuna too but didn't open it. Oh, and Mel "donated" her Woolies chinken! Haha! Shredded of course.

Then I had my potato salad for them too, which were gone in a few blinks of the eye. Luckily Pastor Matt was on diet & didn't eat lor, otherwise I wouldn't have been able to eat my own creation. Haha! In the end, everything turned out well! Just that preparation was tiring... Spent the whole day in Mel's place... literally lor.

Then comes Saturday... =) CAMP!!! Melvyn very kindly accepted the request to drive the late car because Vic, Jas & Deb had exams. I was the navigator, so got to ride with them too! We made our way to Ipswich at like, 11+? Got there, had lunch, then drove back towards Brisbane, heading to Kenilworth to meet up with the rest! It was an easy drive... long, but easy. Coz we've got NAVMAN! Haha! Courtesy of Jared... It really made things easier. And we weren't lost for a moment! Just stuck in a jam then got everyone worried that we got lost. Sheesh... K, I appreciate the concern but have some faith in me man! Haha! K la, it was inevitable to think that way too... *hugs everyone* Thanks guys, for your concern! =)))

K, don't wanna bore you guys with excruciating detail. U can see from my photos what we did. It wasn't much, but yeah, it was good fun.

Debbie, Jasmine & Vic at the back of Melvyn's car!

Dinner at the campsite...
The girls playing Heart Attack + art lessons. Haha!

The forfeited people!
Daniel's "surprise" birthday cake!
I slept out-tent that night, so I could see the stars & the moon & the clouds & everything... Surprisingly no one else was out. Haha! All hiding in the tent... =)

Spooky moon
Jessica the angel! Haha!

The clones!!!

Fight your clones!!!

Say no evil, see no evil, hear no evil!

Next morning, we had a short, fast, furious hike to a nearby gold mine, which was closed... before doing a short devotion and heading back to Brisbane.

Brekky!

Pack up pack up!!! Hurry up! No time already!

The ever-cheerful face of Jessica, and her gang!

Aren't they nice? I was telling them everyone looked so glum during the walk, then they posed for me! Hahaha! Oh, that's Vic, Jas and Mel! RAWR indeed! Haha! Silly girls, you... =)

Water parade! Dri-i-ink up!

The cheerful gang!!!

Everybody outside the gold mine entrance! Haha! Everybody except me! Standing tall above them! Yay!

Last 4 of the group! Must've been digging for gold... *tsk tsk*

All of us down at the river bed! Took me 8s to run from my camera to them. *pants*

Ok, this was at the camping grounds itself. No, I didn't have to run. Haha! Look at Daniel's butt!!! Haha! Oooo! Sexeh!

Yay! My group! My group my group! K la... we didn't have much group activities also... only devotion & BS. =)

On the journey back, Melissa came over to our car & Jasmine & Debbie had to go over to the van. So 4 of us were told to lead the convoy lor... Drive drive drive halfway, eh! Where's everyone! So we waited at Kenilworth awhile, drove back to the campsite again, couldn't find the rest, then decided that they thought we were gone the wrong way & didn't follow us. So we went down to Redcliffe for a wonderful lunch at the Red Dolphin!!! Recommended by Melvyn! It wasn't too bad... and the place was alright too! Got back home about 3 I think, then went to church after that, had dinner in the city... some Korean restaurant, then went Milton for coffee with Vic, Mel, Felicia & James. Nice evening! Yay! Nice way to end off a hectic, less-than-assuring week...

Melvyn & Vic at the beach! Mel & I were down at the water's edge. Haha!

Nice view eh? But I think the sand's kinda yellow though... don't like.

Oh, this is Red Dolphin... duh.

And this is them IN Red Dolphin, waiting for our Family Feast. Haha!

Tada!!! Wah, very nice know, the fish! And they've got mussels, scallops, crab-sticks, prawns, seafood cakes and dunno what la. Nice right already. Haha!

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Monday night was crazy! Haha! Went for dinner with Melvyn, Victoria, Melissa, Karen and Yujun at Toowong's Sizzler. Haha! The 3 girls (exclude Vic) crazy one lor... keep wanting to see who can eat more. Haha! Their challenge? 3 plates of salad... Now I can make the Vic's xian face. -.- Hahaha! Ok, granted, they're girls. That's why I didn't say anything, and was actually quite surprised they had more than that! Haha! Nice... next time got eating kakis already! And Melvyn was like damn surprised at the amount of food I ate la... haha!

After dinner, it was raining & they all started wearing their hoodies. Me? I was only wearing a t-shirt, so this was what I ended up doing...

Haha! K, at first it was just Karen, Mel, Vic & I (the stupid one with my t-shirt over my head), but I thought I'd post the photo with all of us in it... haha! We were saying we look like aliens, hence the fingers!

Crippled right? Haha! Yup! Tha-a-a-at's me! =)

So 6 of us drove to the Eleanor Schonell Bridge, singing & screaming in the car along the way, wanting to feel emotional on the bridge... what with the drizzle & the songs from Mel's iPod... *sigh* I did feel emotional then... took a short walk away from them... had lotsa thoughts in my head... heh.

The emotional state of mind... Well, before this, there's the crazy state of mind... but I shan't upload the video for fear of getting hacked to death. Haha!

Anyways, it was getting late then, and we decided that we should all head home coz I've got sch the next day... *pffft* All u ppl who don't... grrr. *waves fist* Haha!

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Yesterday was another rushed day. Completed my poster in like 2h. Haha! What the hell. Then today went to sch at 9 then Emma said got presentation. I was like, what presentation? THe poster? And she was like, ya! Can u imagine how shocked I was? Haha! Like, shit la! What the hell!

In the end, still have to go through with it... *bleah* But it was ok I guess... Rivol got the jitters & begged me to present the rest, after Brendan. That's fine with me but I know the tutors & lecturer would ask him stuff if he just kept quiet by the side... which happened. Oh wells... *shrugs*

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"Close your eyes,
Give me your hand, darlin',
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?

I believe
It's meant to be, darlin',
I watch you when you are sleeping.
You belong with me.
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming?
Or is this burning an eternal flame?

Say my name!
Sun shines through the rain.
A whole life so lonely,
And then you come and ease the pain.
I don't want to lose this feeling, oh!"

-Bangles: Eternal Flame

"I could stay awake just to hear you breathing.
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming.
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender.
I could stay lost in this moment forever.
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure.

I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.
'Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.

Lying close to you,
Feeling your heart beating.
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you're seeing.
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together,
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever!

I don't wanna miss one smile,
I don't wanna miss one kiss.
Well, I just wanna be with you,
Right here with you, just like this.
I just wanna hold you close!
Feel your heart so close to mine!
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time!"

-Aerosmith: I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing

"Cannot touch,
Cannot hold,
Cannot be together.

Cannot love,
Cannot kiss,
Cannot have each other.

Must be strong,
And we must let go.
Cannot say
What our hearts must know.

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you
Here in my arms?

How does one waltz away
From all the memories?
How do I not miss you
When you are gone?

Cannot dream,
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments.

Cannot feel
How we feel,
Must pretend it's over.

Must be brave,
And we must go on.
Must not say
What we've known all along."

-Joy Enriquez: How Can I Not Love You

I know you're hurting... I know it's hard. But let's not give up just yet darling, coz I love you so. How can I not love you? How? =(

Love me if you dare... 13:25
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Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Day by Day

Hmm... for those of u who know, my other blog isn't working out the way I hoped it would. So I'm gonna delete that.

In my search for myself, I realised that a personal approach would give me the best answers. Although nobody really put down anything, I've tried asking a couple of friends, especially those whom I met just recently & who've gotten to know me quite abit... and even some who didn't really know me! Hahaha!

"Coz you're a good Christian boy... I don't see you looking at boys, neither do I see you checking girls out.."

"Who's that guy you brought to the city?"
"Oh, Kane. He's my OCF friend. Why?"
"Oh, no reason. He's really nice. :) A good friend."

"Hmm... I think you're a very nice guy with a big heart for people... and someone who's very serious and firm in his belief."

"This nice thought of you really brighten up my day."

Haha! Yay! I've gotta admit these statements really did get to my head abit... like, I kept smiling la... It's nice to know ppl think you're nice. Haha! But there's nothing to boast about, really. Nice people are everywhere. I'm just a teeny weeny minority.

But all the same, thank you girls, for thinking of me that way... =) Really appreciate it... and really feel appreciated as well.

Hmm... Friday's combined meeting, Thursday insect collection due, tmr must identify & classify them, Saturday camping in Sunshine Coast... MAN! This week is SO-O-O full of stuff! Just pray that GOD will be with me all this while, and give me the wisdom to please him with the things I do.

Today, a song I learnt as a young young child came to me... and I think it speaks so truly of what we as adults need from GOD...

"Day by day dear LORD,
Of YOU three things I pray:

To see YOU more clearly,
To love YOU more dearly.
To follow YOU more nearly,

Day by day."

-Richard of Chichester (1197-1253): Day by Day

"每一日我主
我懇求三件事∶

更深刻認識你，
更虔誠敬拜你。
更緊緊地跟誰你，

每一日。"

讓我們每一日都更親近主，求祂看顧我們的心，幫組我們作個好基督徒，愛我們的鄰舍，愛我們的敵人。當然也少不了妳我！我愛妳！*抱抱*

Love me if you dare... 20:49
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