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Monday, June 25, 2007

Puppy-sitting... -.-

12:37pm... alone at home with a dog... a bloody whiny dog... one that might pee anytime. I'm just praying it won't be on me.

I'm talking to the dog! Shit! I'm... talking... to... the DOG!
And it's crawling all over me la! *sigh*

Exams are over... SCHOOL is over...

A new phase looms ahead and I'm only just beginning to realise the impact my first job will have in my life. Whether my first job will be here in Australia or back in Singapore will probably determine where my ministry will be. I really wanna stay on, yet I really wanna go back too.

Just last night, I thought of all my friends back there, especially Bernice... haha! All smiley all the time, witty, smart, encouraging, and willing to listen (sometimes). Haha! I miss her so much... Oh yes, thank you so much for your postcard. Think I got it last week or the week before. =)

Anyways, job-hunting hasn't exactly been a breeze. They want Australian citizens, or permanent residents... both of which I'm not. I'm still searching though. Praying very hard that GOD will let me stay, yet at the same time wanting to fulfil HIS will in my life. Being submissive really ain't easy... but being submissive is all there is to GOD... If we're not submissive, we're not allowing HIM to work in our lives.

What am I doing with my life?

I feel like a 40year old, retrenched, living in a shabby lil' hut, sitting by a broken window in a rocking chair, wondering what life is all about. Maybe holding a half-finished bottle of beer in one hand and a ciggy in the other?

*waves arms & disintegrates thought bubble*

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My relationships are a wreck... I haven't been catching up with my friends back home, I haven't exactly built any strong & deep ones here. Those that I have, there's a high chance I'm gonna be leaving, so I'm afraid these would end up like those back home. It's so true that I haven't got any friends.

*thought bubble comes back again*

Go away! *waves arms*

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Should I cut my hair? I feel like I want to, but I haven't let it grow to what I would consider long. But it's getting hard to manage... haha! Karen & Yujun says to cut... Mel says up to me... Vic... have I asked Vic? Haha! Emily says “你千萬不要剪頭髮喔！” Haha! Emily... reminds me of convo class in KBC.

Yesterday Max said we wouldn't be having it for the next couple of weeks. Ok, cool. But thinking about it later in the evening (in Feli's car), it just felt like I'm gonna be leading a very sad & lonely life here with all 5 girls gone. I need to work man... part-time for now at least. Or I'm just gonna die of missing them...

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How is it that when I'm not even home for most of the month that our internet quota has less than 1GB left for 1 week? *bleah*

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I want to ride my bicycle! I want to ride my bike... (x2)

Miss cycling so much. I think I'll get a 2nd hand bike & then sell it or give to Mel or Feli or someone...

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Ok, gonna change & prepare to meet Vic to get some groceries... then I'll head off to the Manors for the week...

Please pray for me, if only to be submissive to GOD.

Love me if you dare... 10:36
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