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Thursday, July 05, 2007

On food & family ties...

I cooked dinner today! Ok, yesterday. Haha! Cooked my "legendary" spicy potato with minced pork, less 2 variants of chillis... Usually I use habaneros, dried chillis, the small chillis, and Vidhya's chilli powder that she left last time. But since I used up her chilli powder & haven't gotten any refills from Jennifer, I haven't been making it. But since today I'm feeding Jesslyn & auntie, who don't usually eat much spice, I only used habaneros and dried chilli.

Haha! Turns out, it was just the right spiciness for them! Yay! And auntie kept eating it & saying, “哇！這個很好吃！” Hahaha! I couldn't believe that she liked it so much lor! Kept eating & eating... aiseh! I dunno whether she saying 客氣話 or if it's really nice lor. But her insistent appraisal made me inclined to think that she really liked it... haha! Yay! So happy!!! *grins all over*

Anyways, Melvyn finally arrived today. His flight was delayed though... made a transit over at Sydney. So tiaow la! But thank GOD he made it here safe & sound. =) I think auntie also happy liao... haha! Like, finally she doesn't need to be the one driving around anymore. Looking forward to see his dad here too! Probably sometime next week. So nice to see them... one happy family.

Which leads me to think about my own family. I envy them quite abit y'know... seeing how Jesslyn & Melvyn are so close, and how they're really filial to their mum (probably dad too), how they stand by each other... Even before I met them, I already knew Jesslyn calls Melvyn very often because many times he would be with us when she called... *nods* Mmm... so nice & heart-warming to have such a supportive family.

Mine, on the other hand, isn't quite like that. Yes, we as children love & respect our parents, but sometimes, we don't... we talk back, we argue, we don't listen. Although mostly these aren't rude arguments or talking back, it's so different when u compare it with them. I'm closer to Shawn now than before, most prob because of his involvment with the youths in church and his nurturing of some of the more senior youths. Like, they're the link that brings us both closer these recent years. I also try to be closer to Evelyn, to be to her like a brother should be... I want to be someone whom she can confide in, someone she can count on to hear her laugh, to hear her cry, to turn to when her friends aren't there for her, or when she falls out with her boyfriend, that kinda thing, y'know? But we never got there. Somehow, either one of us is resisting or not opening up or unwilling to make that first step to closeness, or all 3. And we don't confide in our parents... none of us do, I think. Our relationship with them is pretty superficial. Then again, it has to do with all our lifestyles being poles apart, if there were 5 poles instead of 2.

Shawn: Married, working, studying, 2 kids to look after. Only sees mum when she visits.
Evelyn: Works late into the night, sleeps in sometimes, leaves home before daybreak sometimes, don't get to see anyone much.
Mum: Gets up early, goes to work, sleeps pretty late but not late enough to see Evelyn for long.
Dad: Flies around the world, sleeps & wakes when he does. Don't get to see anyone even if he doesn't sleep.
Me: Flew to Brisbane, sleeps & wakes when I do, doesn't get to see anyone anyways.

Yet, looking at us individually, I think we're pretty alright. Shawn's handling his life pretty ok... serving GOD in more ways than one. Evelyn's taking care of her life the way she likes it, the way she knows how... Mum's spending time doing what she enjoys, even though at times it gets tiring for her. Dad's travelling the world giving workshops and sermons and whatnot... giving his life to GOD, almost totally it would seem. Me? I'll graduate with a Bachelor of Science in another 15days. I'm probably the least settled now in my family. But I believe GOD will bring me through the next couple of years, to settle me down, maybe even to start a family? Hahaha! Although it's quite scary to think I'd be fathering someone anytime soon, GOD's plans are higher than ours and we definitely shouldn't rule that out. *grin*

Somehow, we turn out ok... ok enough, at least.

I still wish we were a closer family though...

On the verge of withdrawal symptoms. Need some distractions. Need some inspiration. Need some motivation. Need... need lotsa chocolates. Need you by my side...

Love me if you dare... 00:29
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