Sunday, September 30, 2007
Esther Huang...
Once again, my day is totally affected because of your presence. I'm not saying that it's your fault. Not at all... I guess after 5 Sundays back here, 4 of which seeing you puts me at ultra unease, it's time I look for another place to worship GOD without distraction... at least until I can talk to you proper...
Today was the closest I've been to you since I came back... 2 feet? Every Sunday, I try to avoid you... I even try to avoid letting you see me! Today was the same. I only went in for fellowship because I didn't see you in there... Even when I sat down just to your right, I didn't realize it was you... not until I shifted to sit behind you. By then, it was too late to back out. So I stayed and maintained as low a profile as I could. I wanted to go for lunch with the rest too, but I figured if you were going, I wouldn't go... At first, I saw ur mum & sis waiting for you downstairs, so I thought maybe you wouldn't be joining the rest for lunch, so I agreed to go. But when they left & I saw u there with the rest, I decided I wouldn't go already. I walked out to the bus stop wishing & wishing so hard that my bus would come & I'd just board & go without having to try to avoid you... Of course, that didn't happen. But when u boarded the bus with Isaac, I already flagged the bus down, so I decided I'd just go home. I didn't feel like I want to hang around people anyways...
Next time you see me, know that wherever everyone goes, if you're there, I'll try my best not to be ok? If I'm there, it was never my intention to haunt you. It was never my intention to hurt you either. And it will never be.
I just don't understand... I thought you said you were ok? I thought things were getting better for you? Why did you lie then? What happened? Why do you hate to see me? Why do you loath meeting my eyes? Will we ever talk again?
I just wished things turned out better than they have.
So much for friendship... =(
It's not just you. Really. I just don't feel like I belong anymore... things have changed. Maybe Bingjun was right when he told Simin that we're hanging around in Youth too much... we're too old for that. We need a deeper sense of belonging than just being around people who we know superficially. We need a deeper understanding of our faith, and probably even a more active living out of our faith than we are currently indulging in. We need to move on...
... to where? I dunno... for my case, not PL anymore... I'm going someplace else for the time being... alone. Don't follow me. Don't ask me...
Love me
if you
dare...
15:32
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Thursday, September 27, 2007
Upper Peirce!!!
So I went to Lower Peirce today... intended to take alot of insects but because it was a rainy day, there weren't many about... unfortunately. =(
Anyways, I also intended to take the sunset at Upper Peirce, which is a hell of a walk from Casuarina... and it rained even more when I got there... *pooh*
So anyways, here're a number of photos I got whilst walking from Lower Peirce to Upper Peirce... =)
The Bamboo Trail!!! But I don't recall seeing any bamboos coz I was rushing and the sky was like, black...
Just thought the design on the bench was nice... haha! And the seemingly never-ending path...
Here's another bench. Nice view eh?
Onwards, to the insects!!!
Oh, u know what this is? Guess! *tick tock tick tock* Ok! It's an ootheca. Know what's that? It's the protective foam that forms around the eggs of praying mantids! Only 2 insects produce an ootheca: Mantids and cockroaches. So there, u learn something new from my blog!
K, not all the ants are in focus... just a couple. My first (well, second. First was a butterfly.) insect(s) spotted.
This is some form of katydid... same Order as grasshoppers and crickets: Orthoptera.
An obedient fly that just stood there for me to take different angles to it! Then, when I finished, it just flew off! Amazing!
Another grasshopper. See the various forms of camouflage they take on?
紅蜻蜓！Haha! Classic song... *hums song in head*
More ants... ALOT more... haha! I forgot the name of the plant... but it produces sugars for them to eat... as a form of protecton for the plant against herbivores...
The long long long road into Upper Peirce. It takes 15min from Casuarina to the entrance of the park, then another 20min from there to get to the park itself... all for rainy weather... *bleah*
Love me
if you
dare...
23:07
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007
New blogskin!!!
If you're reading this entry, you must have noticed my new blogskin. Hahaha!
So, was it difficult to find the spiders? Not so la, hor? =) C'mon! Give yourself a pat on the back! Yay! Good work!
K, getting that up & working took me like 2h coz of the different coding used for Blogger and Frontpage... *pfft* In the end, I had to restart doing the codes. I wish Blogger had an easier way to create templates... but so far, this method has been quite ok... so, *shrugs* Oh well.
Went Sim Lim today with Sihui to get the MacBook Crystal Casing. FINALLY got it... haha! Sihui got her black one & I got Mel her clear one... After that, she met a friend and went to make specs with him le... so I headed to Kovan & met up with Simin for ermm... what do u call it? Afternoon tea? Haha! At KFC. Had 2 piece chicken & whipped potato & a 7-Up & 2 Spicy drumlets. After that, I went with Jasmine & her to church for discipleship class where I saw Derrick and showed off my 2 newly acquired MacBook casings... and after pondering for abit, he decided to get one too! Hahahaha! Shit man, I should be charging commission for this. =D
After that came home le... that's all for today. Boring right? Ya... What a way to spend the Mid-Autumn Festival. Don't even have lanterns or sparklers... *sigh* What have I become? No fire even? *tsk tsk*
Anyways, whilst having "tea" with Simin just now, something came to mind. Guys & girls have been arguing forever about why the guy cannot be more sensitive to the girl's feelings and stuff... It's not impossible, but it seems majority of the guys on planet Earth are as sensitive as a block of wood. So as I thought, the normal "guy" question came to mind, that is, why can't girls just be straightforward? Doesn't it make things a helluva lot easier? If you want Thai for dinner, say "I want Thai food," not "Anything's fine," and then sulk later. If you want a bracelet, say "I want that bracelet," not "I don't know," and complain that your guy doesn't know what you want.
Yes, yes, I know it's SO much nicer if the guy can read your mind, but the fact is, majority of these blocks of wood can't, and they don't even have a mind. Yes, there are times when the guy, through paying alot of attention to what you say & do, have an idea what are the things you want. But when it comes down to getting something, he (k, I) often doesn't know which to get first. And for those who don't pay much attention, then how? You risk a quarrel when you could've steered clear of it and get what you want. Why don't you gauge how sure your guy is of what you want (maybe drop obscene amounts of hints) before deciding whether u want a hopefully sweet turnout that actually became sour, or a hopefully sweet turnout that actually became not as sweet... Try to have your cake and eat it?
Am I making sense? Hahaha! Shit, I realize this is my first ever attempt to side the guys. Girls, please don't flame me k? =P I'm just stating what I think...
I know some of you will throw your hands up in the air and go "You just don't understand! Forget it!" But I do! I do understand... really... but like I said, it's just a thought! Hahaha!
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The world has gone monochrome without you.
*sigh*
Am I being too explicit?
"I don't want to wonder
If this is a blunder,
I don't want to worry whether
We're gonna stay together
'Till we die.
I don't want to jump in
Unless this music's thumping.
All the dishes rattle in the cupboards
When the elephants arrive.
I want to love you madly.
I want to love you now.
I want to love you madly, way!
I want to love you, love you!
Love you madly.
I don't want to fake it,
I just want to make it.
The ornaments look pretty
But they're pulling down the branches
Of the tree.
I don't want to think about it,
I don't want to talk about it.
When I kiss your lips
I want to sink down to the bottom
Of the sea.
I don't want to hold back,
I don't want to slip down.
I don't want to think back
To the one thing that I know I
Should have done.
I don't want to doubt you,
Know everything about you.
I don't wanna sit across the table from you
Wishing I could run."
-Cake: Love You Madly
Love me
if you
dare...
01:45
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Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Mooncake Festival!!!
It's 3:40am and I'm blogging... hahaha! And listening to Puffy Amiyumi... cool! =)
And somehow my com is lagging...
Anyways, just wanted to recollect my day...
Initial intention was to go Sim Lim early, so I can visit my godparents later in the afternoon and give them mooncakes, then when Eunice knocks off, she can drive by Fernvale to pick me up. But Murphy has a way to make your life like the weather... unpredictable.
Firstly, Sihui couldn't make it at the time I wanted to go out, so cancelled. Called up my godparents later in the day to ask if they'd be home, and they were gonna go out soon, so... postponed. But at least the evening went as planned, although I thought Eunice would've asked Melisa or someone else along. Haha! Turns out it was just us both... which was as well... =) She's been reading my blog regularly (haven't you? *winks*) so she knows how I've been living and all, so it was a catch-up session for me. Haha! Y'know, I still think u really should start a blog. Haha! Then again, writing about your patients may get u in trouble so, up to u! *shrugs* Haha!
So anyway, we went to the Chinese Garden at ermm... Chinese Garden MRT... somewhere in Jurong la... to look at the Mid-Autumn Festival display. It really wasn't too bad! Pity I didn't go last year when they had the Disney theme...
Lookit them pi'chers! =D
The first thing that caught my eye when we entered is this:
Well, I guess it was quite effective after all! Hahaha! No trapping wor...
Yes, we were kinda lame... haha! Some of the stuff we did kinda drew a crowd... haha! Stuff like these:
K, enough of our nonsense... Haha! Some of the more "proper" shots...
The 7 storey pagoda!!!
We had free lanterns! Yay!!!
And the tradition, coincidentally for both of us, was to...
BURN THE LANTERNS!!!!
Oh, this is what they depict Atlantis to be like. Haha! What happened to the domed force field?!
K... this... Tell me, does it look like a monkey at first glance? That's what I thought... But check out the shell on their backs! They're SEA-MONKEYS!!! Wow!!!
Can you find Nemo? They all look quite alright here...
But taken from another angle, these clown fish look decidedly whacked!
Ooooo... glowing polar bears... in the mountains! Interesting eh? Haha!
Oh oh oh!!! 八仙過海！There're Biblical characters here, if u look closely & are imaginative enough... eh, Eunice? Hahaha!
Yep! It was a great evening. Thank you Eunice, for asking me out and driving me home. I really wouldn't have minded the MRT... But at least you know where I stay now. *grin*
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Hey! Check this phrase out!
"Three things that never failed to rile him were bureaucracy, incompetence, and stupidity, especially when they occured together, which they often did."
-Robin Cook: Crisis: Dr Jack Stapleton, p374 row2
Doesn't that just speak to you? No? K, it speaks to me. No, it speaks FOR me... It's exactly how I feel when I can't get what I need/want in so many places.
And this too:
"Jack didn't have a problem breaking rules he judged ridiculous..."
-Robin Cook: Crisis: Dr Jack Stapleton, p464 row10
Sounds like me too... haha! At least, I think it sounds like me... *grin*
Anyways, for you who are interested in medical thrillers, Robin Cook is a good writer... Some of his books might be slightly dragged out but the twist at the end is usually quite good. Likewise, Dean Koontz.
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*sigh*
3 days at Mount Glorious. I hope you'll enjoy yourself. In fact, I'm quite sure you will... =) Immensely. Yay! I just wish I were there too... Be praying for you all. =) Good weather good weather good weather... No injuries no injuries no injuries... haha! As if chanting would work. 7's 7's 7's 7's... hahahaha!!!
Love me
if you
dare...
01:39
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Well, I guess it was quite effective after all! Hahaha! No trapping wor...
And the tradition, coincidentally for both of us, was to...
BURN THE LANTERNS!!!!
