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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Need to blog...

I need to blog now or I'll never blog again...

Ok, maybe not so... but it's been ultra-long since I last blogged...

Anyways, the days have been pretty mundane. And if only Scott O'Neill could see this part of my life, he'd know I totally fulfilled the criteria to "willing to do mundane tasks to a high standard." Like I told Jun just now, the idea of quitting ever crossed my mind... in fact, more than once... because it's tiring and boring... and I think for the amount of work I'm doing, I deserve more than $50 a day. Haha! But well, I can't just drop out when it feels boring... it won't look very good on me would it? Oh wells... till I find a better job...

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They're gonna go kayaking this weekend! Wah lau... I wanna go-o-o-o... not for the kayaking, but more of the "who" kayaking will be with... *sigh*

Every morning when I sit down at the kitchen table, with my breakfast spread before me, I think of communcal brunch... signature meal when I stay over at the Manors... which, actually, is quite alot... (quite is an understatement) Unfortunately, it's just communal with the wall... and a pile of old newspapers. I have almost the same ingredients: fresh milk, bread, peanut butter, jam, butter knife, plate, cup... sometimes breakfast cereal. The most important ingredient missing is the people. *sigh*

Nobody knows how I feel... So helpless. *sigh*

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And on Monday morning, which was the start of your O's, I thought of you, but I can't even send you an SMS to wish you all the best. This will be over in a couple of weeks, but when the time comes, would I have the courage to face you?

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Isn't my life such a screw-up? Why do you still love me? I simply cannot understand... *sigh*

I miss you...

"We'll do it all,
Everything
On our own.

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone.

If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel,

Those three words
Are said too much,
They're not enough.

If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told,
Before we get too old,
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads.

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own.

All that I am,
All that I ever was,
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see.

I don't know where,
Confused about how as well.
Just know that these things will never change for us at all.

If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

-Snow Patrol: Chasing Cars

"Put your head on my shoulder.
Hold me in your arms, baby.
Squeeze me oh so tight,
Show me that you love me too.

Put your lips next to mine, dear.
Won't you kiss me once, baby.
Just a kiss goodnight, maybe
You and I will fall in love.

People say that love's a game,
A game you just can't win.
If there's a way,
I'll find it someday,
And then this fool will rush in.

Put your head on my shoulder.
Whisper in my ear, baby,
Words I want to hear,
Tell me, tell me that you love me too.

Put your head on my shoulder.
Whisper in my ear, baby,
Words I want to hear, baby,
Put your head on my shoulder."

-Paul Anka: Put Your Head On My Shoulder

Oh, how I wish...

Love me if you dare... 19:14
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