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Sunday, December 09, 2007

Jobs and my future... again.

Today I met someone who talked alot to me about my working life and my future again.

I thought his view on work is really quite funny, and rather unorthodox... I mean, well, compared to my ideals. Maybe I'm the one who's unorthodoxed... *shrugs*

Anyways, what do I mean by that? Well, when I find a job, obviously (to me) it has to be something that will interest me... Otherwise, how to do it for the long run? I'd just be working for a couple of months or less, then I'll quit. Then, what's the point in that? And who would wanna hire me for that short period other than sales personnel? Which, by the way, I have totally no interest at all as well.

But his thinking was really quite different. He said I should just try sales for awhile, since most probably I will never be doing sales anymore for the rest of my life. But I don't have any interest at all, I said. And he laughed (mockingly, I felt) and said, who said working's gotta do with interest? Then in my head, I was like, who said it doesn't? If you work in a field or company that you have absolutely no interest in, you wouldn't invest your efforts and time in your work, which means you wouldn't excel, which means no promotion/pay-rise/bonus or whatever... then, why would I wanna work like that for the rest of my life? I'd be frustrated at work, I'll go home frustrated, I'll sleep restlessly, I'll wake dreading to go to work, I'll go to work frustrated... It's a vicious cycle... really vicious. But the way he said it, it was like the whole world is doing work that they're not interested in. And I felt like he thought I was wasting my life. 24 years old and still hanging around looking for a job that I like. And he mentioned someone in China who started a revolution when he was 23... which happened in 1986 or something... Was that Mao Ze Dong? Pardon my lack of history knowledge. Maybe a consultation with Bernice would clear things up... But anyways, I was like, why're you pointing your crooked finger and saying I haven't accomplished much in life at 24 when you don't seem to have accomplished much in life at... whatever age you are?

At the moment, I haven't reached the stage of dreading to see/meet him yet... but if this kind of mockery/insults/"advice" goes on, I'm afraid I'll be running away from him in future... Please, I don't need you to tell me how to live my life. I may not know all the ropes, I may be a greenhorn, but I am able to make my own decisions and bear the consequences of whatever mistakes I made. This way, I have no one to blame or to owe except GOD and myself... but mostly myself since GOD gives us our choices in life.

So ya... please, back off a little. -.-

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Went back to PLCMC today... After service, some of us went to the nearby coffeeshop for breakfast. Having tithed, I have only about $3.10 left on me, which wasn't quite enough to eat what I wanted. So, I just sat down and watched them eat, and lo and behold! Doris couldn't finish her porridge, so I finished whatever she had left. After awhile, she couldn't finish her beehoon and chicken wing, so I finished that too! After awhile, Anqi couldn't finish her Iced Horlicks too! Talk about a complete breakfast. Haha! So, I had a pretty satisfying breakfast, complete with tissue, courtesy of Melanie, for $0.00... wonderful. =)

Anyways, it was raining and I didn't really wanna go for class... and since Doris didn't really wanna go for class either, we went downstairs to look for the other delinquents: Bingjun, Anqi, Dennis, and later on, Ziwei. Chit chat for awhile, and I felt it was abit waste of time to just sit there and stare, I decided to come home.

So I'm gonna pack my bag for camp soon, take a short nap, go out and hope for all the best in camp... as a photographer.

Today is the first day of Young Adult Camp for ORPC as well... I think Claire, Vic and Mel would've liked me to go, and I have an inkling I might have enjoyed myself there more than I would here. Then again, it's not just about enjoying myself... I'm quite willing to help Shawn in his plans for the senior youths... even though I'm quite skeptical and hesitant about it. Oh wells, we shall see how things go...

See y'all in a week's time!

Love me if you dare... 12:39
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