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Monday, March 31, 2008

Hmm...

So ends my last day at Compliance...

Gavin & Miang Cze treated me lunch... at Six, a japanese restaurant in the Standard Chartered building, whatever it really is called. We had originally wanted to eat at Black Angus at One Fullerton, but fortunately (for them) it was closed down already. Haha!

Anyways, CSC tomorrow. Liz asked if I was excited and happy to be there. Haha! To be honest, I'm quite apprehensive since I don't know what my job scope will be and such. Besides, I'm only gonna be there 6 weeks or so, so I really don't know what kind of jobs I'll be doing. Coffee? Tea? Haha! Oh wells... tomorrow will know better.

The past few days has seen sunsets that are pretty... ermm... pretty. Haha! Well, they're not supremely beautiful, but it's got reds that I haven't seen for a long time. Not orange... red. Nice nice red. =) Maybe I should take some sunset photos... like go to reservoir or go to West Coast or Labrador Park or something... Then again, I wouldn't have the time to. Even Saturday also cannot... got 2 Timothy clinic at ORPC for 2 weeks. And the 3rd Saturday, the climate's probably changed already.

Oh wells... looks like things aren't meant to be.
Y'know, I think I'm past the Lomo thing. Lomo is an expression of art. You don't need "lomo-cameras" to take Lomo pics... I'm selling my cameras. And my USD$60 credit with Lomography.com, I might either buy some 800 film and slides, or get a refund. I will still have a film SLR anyway. Yep! Sounds good. Money money money!!!

*sigh*

These days, things seem to be plateauing. Life is sinking into monotony. Work, home, online, sleep, work, home, online, sleep... same cycle everyday, except the weekends. Today's QT talks about having faith that GOD is leading the way, that fighting the everyday evils is GOD's battle, and we're but a soldier in GOD's army. 2 Corinthians 20 has a very graphic story that depicts that. Read it... really. And the material says that sometimes it's really hard to just hand your life over to GOD, especially when things don't seem to be going GOD's way, we panic and try to take things into our own hands, which fouls up GOD's plans for us. Seeing life in that light, yes, it really IS very hard to hand it to GOD... just like that. It's so hard I feel like breaking down and crying now. *sigh*

Questions kinda wedge their way into your head and haunt you whenever you're alone, nothing much to do but brood... and asking yourself questions that you have no answer for, except the word "faith", over and over and over again, it's really quite taxing... and you just wanna keel over and rock back and forth on the soles of your feet, shutting the world and its impositions for wealth and good living out by cupping your palms over your ears and shutting your eyes and imagining the world was white with snow slowly drifting down... oooo, pretty snowflakes... *ting*

K, sorry. I was kinda overwhelmed.

Anyways, just wanna say things aren't that bad, so don't worry ya? =) No, seriously, don't worry. Cheers!

Love me if you dare... 20:02
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