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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Demoralized... =(

It's really depressing after studying something you enjoy so much, love so much, and then come out fresh and ready to work, but unable to find a job with a jobscope that's something you like. Especially after looking for so long, you become stale already... and the enthusiasm in finding a suitable job dies down alittle, but you're still keeping your eyes peeled. Yet, time after time after time after time, you never find the one job with even a hint of jobscope like what you're after.

Worse still is the fact that you took a bank loan that your family is hardly able to support, thinking that oh, it's easy to pay off that loan soon after graduation coz people would want a graduate student, especially in such a specialized field.

This is all an illusion cleverly conjured by the ever-increasing demands of yesterday's society, which moves on with their requirements and standards so quickly that people who aim to get a bachelor end up having to enter the paper chase and go higher and higher, because everytime they graduate, the benchmark is raised. And when finally they get to a high-up-there position, society thinks that he/she is over-qualified, and in the end, people are still jobless.

Of course there're lots of jobs out there that don't pay so well. Honestly, I'd be willing to do some of them. But unless I become a hermit and a loner physically, emotionally and psychologically, everyone, and I mean EVERYONE is gonna be saying, if you're gonna be doing this, why spend so much money to go overseas to study?

Well, interest for one... and for recognition I guess. Yet another deception. In the end, it's not what kind of qualifications you have. It's how successful you are in your field, or in whatever work you're in that matters, that people are gonna see. If you can be the top road-sweeper in Singapore and enter an international road-sweeping championship and eventually become a world-class road-sweeper, people are gonna look at you differently than if you were a PhD with no job. There'll be extremes though. There'll be those who love you and adore you and admire you, and there'll be those who hate you. In the end, if you ask me, it all boils back down to whose opinion you really care about.

So what is this whole post about? *shrugs* Beats me man. I guess I just wanted to rant my frustrations at being unable to find a job after close to a year.

Oh, and I just extended my position at Clariden Leu till the end of June, unofficially. We'll see how the chief thinks. I'm so afraid that I'll invariably end up working in the financial sector... What an ecological destructor...

Love me if you dare... 17:36
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