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Wednesday, October 01, 2008

What for?

It seems like you don't even want to chat with me, even when you know that my phone is spoilt and I can't SMS or call you. A part of me is thinking, you're probably happy that I can't contact you and keep reminding you that I exist and that we're still struggling with our relationship.

Why? Why are u doing this? You're home from camp, and not having spoken for like 3 days, you come home and you prefer to slack in front of the TV with Charles and Chris... You don't even come online for a second to tell me, "hey, I'm gonna watch TV. Chat with you another day k?" You just leave me waiting hopelessly in front of the com.

I also wonder what Charles think. Is he happy that you're on the verge of breaking up with me? Does he want us to break up so that he'll have another break-up buddy just like he did with his girlfriend? Otherwise, why doesn't he ask you to call me? Wouldn't any normal person who just came back from camp and who hadn't communicated with their significant other want to talk to their significant other anxiously? Wouldn't he question why you're not calling?

Oh yes, I forgot... I'm not significant in your life right now. He is.

And if I thought of him wrongly and he did ask, then why didn't u? Oh-h-h, right... I forgot. I'm not significant!

Many times, I wonder, what's the point of hanging on so desperately?

"我听到楼下有车子停下的声音，
然后是一阵好久的平静，
你才舍得他离去。
爱情再次回到我这里。
睡不著我开了电视想有点声音，
却听到门前你的深呼吸。
晚安说得很小心很努力，
也许像你说的朋友而已。
你却一再避开我眼睛，
如果真的只是朋友而已，
为什么他名字你从不提起？

他送你回来以后，
我常一个人到外头走走。
我以为我至少可以想通一个烂理由。

他送你回来以后，
我假装没有太多的难受。
这样有一天你真的要走不必我点头。"

-许志安：他送你回来以后

"It's all because of you,
I'm feeling sad and blue.
You went away,
Now my life is just a rainy day.
And I love you so,
How much you'll never know.
You've gone away and left me lonely.

Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me.
Another love so true,
That once turned all my gray skies blue.
But you disappeared,
Now my eyes are filled with tears,
And I'm wishing you were here with me.

Soaked with love are my thoughts of you.
Now that you're gone
I just don't know what to do.

If only you were here,
You'd wash away my tears,
The sun would shine once again,
You'd be mine, all mine.
But in reality,
You and I will never be.
'Cause you took your love away from me.

Girl, I don't know what I did
To make you leave me.
But what I do know,
Is that since you've been gone,
There's such an emptiness inside.
I'm wishing you'd come back to me."

-4PM: Sukiyaki

Love me if you dare... 09:53
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